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Good Bye
Yesterday, I had to say good bye. I had to say goodbye to the person I dated for almost three years.
In those three years, we had been through a lot. I helped him through his divorce, hours moving back home, his job losses. He helped me through my depression, my suicide attempts, my wanting to give up.
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I'm depressed.
why am I depressed?
because I ruined somebody else's life again. because I ruined yet another relationship. because I get jealous. because I get angry. because I push people away. because I can't handle my emotions. because I don't think. because I think too much. because I don't know what I want. because I do know what I want.
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Last night
worst night ever last night. I couldn't seem to fall asleep, so I laid awake thinking (bad idea). I thought about how I get addicted to things so quickly. And then lose interest just as quickly. For example: apps/websites. I will get sucked in, and be on them every minute of every day. And then just one day, I'm done. I wonder if that's why I'm ( Read more... ) -
Giving up....
I'm kind of doing it as we speak. I just give up. I don't want to do it anymore. I don't want to try any more. I don't really think it's worth it. But I don't know how to say it without it sounding so harsh. I don't see any more potential. I don't see change. I don't see a future. But I don't want to give up everything that I have done so far. I ( Read more... ) -
stale
I feel like my life is stale.
I'm bored. I'm really bored. I shouldn't be, but I am. Something needs to change, something hopefully will change, but I just have to wait. I'm sick of waiting. Waiting for something that is completely out of my control. Everything is dependant on other people. It doesn't matter what I want.
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Cry For Help...
You've been hiding out
For quite a while now,
Living off of people you know
Trying to raise a little money
To pay off all the monkeys
That you met inside the Rabbit hole
You're taking candy from the white witch
You're smoking tea with Mama Kin
Well, there's a wolf outside
A brick house screaming; p
"This time I'm gonna blow it in!"
[Pre-chorus:]
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"I cant control myself..."
"So when I feel the need
I think its time to bleed
I'm gonna cut myself
And watch the blood hit the ground
Right now..."
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Depression...
It just comes out of no where and kicks you right square in the ass. Then keeps shoving you down to the ground when you try to get up...