i'll never know how bad you really hurt.. or how much you've survived. i just wish i could hold you until it all goes away. i wish i knew how to help you. all i can say is.. i love you. ive loved you since the moment i met you. i fall in love far too easily, but i can't help it. i wish i was brave enough to tell you everything. to tell you i'd do ( Read more... )

for the first time in a long time i feel at east with where my life is going. maybe i'll never make it back to OU, but maybe i'm ok with that. Maybe I wont get into nursing school, but maybe that doesnt mean my life is over. I feel so at peace for the first time in forever. I'm still not incredibly happy with where I am, but I'm ok with where I'm ( Read more... )

not that you appologized, but no its not ok. im just gonna disappear one day.. dont wonder why ( Read more... )

"What a ridiculous thing, this game. But I love it. I miss you, I miss you more, I miss you most. It can go on for hours. We hardly play it anymore though. I think its something only new couples do. He misses me, I know he misses me, why should he have to tell me he misses me? He shouldnt, and I'm ridiculous for wanting him to play this game ( Read more... )

because sometimes i think my life would be easier if you'd just never call again. just let me go on hating you and stop letting me down. i could tear up letters and pictures one by one and blame it all on that gorgeous floozie you met last year. i know you still talk to her. you know i love you too much to give up on you.. you're the one that ( Read more... )

i found this.. i liked it. i thought i'd share ( Read more... )

restless. i hate this feeling. all the build up of moving around, all the crying and yelling and anger and hopes being built up.. for nothing. Worse than nothing.. to end up back exactly where i started. ugh. i need something. maybe i should take up a hobby. :) an exciting hobby.. like rock climbing or sky diving or something. i dont know that sky ( Read more... )

it's been a 'what else could go wrong?' type week. i must be doing something wrong. i just cant figure out what it is.. i dont know where i want to be anymore or what i want to do. for as long as i can remember ive wanted to be a nurse.. but everything is so fucked up.. im going tomorrow to work with a second grade teacher. ill be teaching a lesson ( Read more... )

if this.. is giving up.. then im giving up..

maybe im just not up for being a victim of love.

the truth is i'm comfortable.. not happy.. not sad.. just comfortable. i let little things drive me crazy sometimes, but more often than not i can put them out of my mind and just not think about them. so take that for what it is. i know there are better things out there than being static.. but right now i cant think of anything.