im going out tonight. not quite sure where i'll go.. i have to get out of this house.. i think im going crazy here. i dont know why i ever trusted you. i think i hate you.

i wish you could see how everything is falling apart. i need someone to love me.. and someone to hold me.. not admire me from afar. i wish you could see. i wish i wasnt just some object in their eyes.. ive always been the girl they just wanted to fuck. wanting to fuck me.. before we've ever dated.. is a sure way to tell that i already dislike you. ( Read more... )

wanna know something funny? for the first time ever.. i looked at a bunch of pictures of you and your new girlfriend, and i dont miss you at all.. i dont miss you.. i dont miss us.. so, you know what? you didnt ruin my life.. you didnt win.. everything is going to be ok.. im going to be ok.. :)

i was always told i was beautiful.. but what does that mean to you? your sex jokes only make me feel more worthless.. dont you know what beautiful means? cant you see what its like to be on the outside looking in? cant you look me in the eyes? you're killing me from the inside out.. how can i scream when i cant even breathe? what about you walking ( Read more... )

im not a fucking check mark on your list of things to do.. im not every other girl you've known.. and im sure as hell not special.. i dont fall for lines.. im not a hopeless romantic.. im not impressed easily.. im certainly not impressed with you.. i dont fight for your attention.. and you will NOT stop me from doing what i want. im not trash.. i ( Read more... )

you know what im thankful for? good friends.. the real kind.. not the fake ones that drop you over a girl or guy or whatever.. the kind of friendships that last over time.. through good and bad relationships.. through not seeing each other.. not talking.. dating minors *cough*.. cuz sometimes there are things in life that you just cant handle on ( Read more... )

i went shopping yesterday.. which was good. i finally got a new belly button ring. yay! its the same ol' dice, but they're cute. i missed seans show.. but im gonna take him to dinner soon. Hearing bono speak changed my life. i dont know how.. but it was one of the most amazing things ive ever been apart of. I have to write an article about it.. ( Read more... )

so norman was fun.. i enjoyed seeing the girls for the first time in a LONG time. hanging out with jen and jordan is always fun.. we had a blast out to eat and starbucks.. next time we're gonna go hookah.. jen wanted to.. but i was sick-ish and no one else seemed to want to. yay for one more week of class and then finals.. im just ready for this ( Read more... )

so heres the truth.. you're just a guy.. typical.. no better, no worse.. so there. im just as happy here without you. you're not the first person to walk away from me.. and if you think you're special.. you're wrong. you know me better than to think id cry.. right? so whatever.. quit calling.. i have nothing to say to you. i have someone wonderful ( Read more... )

it broke my heart because i loved you first.. why not me? i know all your bad habits and i love you anyway. ive held your hand while you puked.. ive seen you rollin.. and trippin.. and strung out.. and everything in between.. choose me.. its not hard.. choose me.. you were supposed to anyway.. the only reason i ever thought i would get married is ( Read more... )