I feel like hell...... I've got a headache and all I want to do is lay down with Brandon. I feel like I don't even want to be alive right now. I'm so fuckin' sick of being miserable. I'm nauseous, my head hurts, I've got a foot in my rib cage,  and I feel like everything is falling back to where it was before we went to Texas. Texas was so perfect ( Read more... )

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I honestly don't know what to do right now. I'm exhausted and I can't sleep. I have so much shit running through my head it's not even funny. I'm having so many flashbacks while I sleep. All of Tim and Mitts. I don't know why, whether it's me missing them in some screwed up messed up way or what. I woke up tonight to Brandon playing songs that ( Read more... )

  I know you're not here yet, but there are a few things I wanted you to read when you get older. As you I'm sure you have already noticed you're dad is the most amazing man in the world. He's talented, sweet, affectionate, and just an all around amazing man! He's taken care of me through out this whole time that we have been together. He's been ( Read more... )

I must say it's been a long road and it will continue to be that way, but I know that I have the man of my dreams with me. And I will always have him and the wonderful baby that we have created. I can't wait to be a mother and I know he is going to be an amazing father. We've had our ups and downs as all couples have, but we've worked through them ( Read more... )

So yeah I woke up this morning with the worst headache every!! Therefore I woke Brandon up and made him take me to my mothers where I took some advil and laid down in the bed until 1:30 this afternoon. Then we went to my grandparents which naturally my grandmother is still being a pain in the ass about me and Brandon living together since we're not ( Read more... )

Okay, so Brandon and I got in a fight last night. Which might I add was a pretty bad one. We're both so freakin' nervous that one is going to leave the other it's not even funny. Apparently he doesn't trust me b/c I've been talking to my guy friends, b/c most of them are ex's, and I've been nervous b/c he gets on their myspace pages and talks about ( Read more... )

Ya know guys this is fuckin' ridiculous. I've been here for you even though we've had problems. I know I've got my flaws everyone does, but you seem to pull out my negatives. I'm honest and a real person. You want to meet a dishonest person go back about 5 years and meet me then. Compare the two from who I was then to who I am now. I've fucked up ( Read more... )

God y'all its been a long time since I've written in here....

Things have been going great though. I've got a wonderful boyfriend, a job, and my family. Nothing at this point could be bad. The few members of my family that have met my boyfriend have been really great. The ones that know about him are just glad that he makes me happy. Which he does ( Read more... )

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you think ( Read more... )