Wow, it has been so long since I have been here. I have been trying hard to recover what ever that means. I still hate the way I look. Even though I have been eating I still have the urge to restrict and to loose. I think of ways to get out of eating but my boyfriend drags me to dinner. It is strange to me that I have gotten stable at about 96 ( Read more... )

I am working at the mall, I am the pain in the tuckass girl who asks you to do surveys. Yes that is what I do 4 days a week. But hey it pays the rent and it is not so bad. Just from now on be nice to the survey girl. It gets old fast when people tell you to shut up all day or shove their hands in your face. But other than that I like it. I've also ( Read more... )

Well I just put in my application to be an egg donor, I know it is crazy but I cann't seem to find a job and they pay you over 5,000 dollars. Ofcourse you need hormone shots and I hate needles but still.I don't know what to do. Raphael would kill me if he knew which is why I'm not going to tell him I am thinking about this. Anyhoo list time!

Well I just put in my application to be an egg donor, I know it is crazy but I cann't seem to find a job and they pay you over 5,000 dollars. Ofcourse you need hormone shots and I hate needles but still.I don't know what to do. Raphael would kill me if he knew which is why I'm not going to tell him I am thinking about this. Anyhoo list time ( Read more... )

I passed one of my hardest classes that I will take at UB. There were 8 people that failed it! I am very happy with myself right now.

I can’t believe its been a full week since I took my last final. It feels strange with nothing to really do. I almost wish we were on a tri-mester schedule because then I would only have 2 weeks of vacation. Long enough to relax and yet not long enough to get bored. I am still looking for a job but hopefully I will have something soon. In fact I ( Read more... )

I may be going insane but hey at least I'm smiling. why? Because I have ubber chi. And that is shiny.I had a good day today, unlike the hell I was in yesterday. Micro seems determined to destroy my life. Death to micro!!But what is the worst that can happen? I fail and have to take the challenge exam. But I think I will get the C. I am just not ( Read more... )

I meet the wife, what more can I say? She told him I was a "baby" and that she diddn't want me in the house. He told her I was a student in the office because the kids were there. But I think she would have to be a fool not to know the truth. He is there now but what will she say to him? I know he won't go back to her but still what if she ( Read more... )

It has been so long since I have written here. But with 3 exams every week I really have no time to even breath.I have an exam every day next week. I really want school to be over. This semestor is much harder than last. I am going to get Cs for sure. Some of it is the material is harder and some of it is the fact that some teachers hate students. ( Read more... )

The pharse "too stupid to live" is quickly flashing itself in my mind right now. Why am I so stupid? I got a freaking 60 on my midterm. Do I have any chance of bringing that up? Not really,oh I can still get a B but there goes my A in biochem. I am so angry at myself. But I am also afraid that Dr.Mattie won't like me now. I am going to go to bed