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Oregon
So for the past few months or so I’ve discussed relocating. I’ve finally completed the move, having left the heat-exhaustion-inducing desert for the cool forested areas of Oregon. While it’s wonderful that I have yet to encounter another 90 degree day, it is unfortunate that no one mentioned previously that due to the latitude the days here are ( Read more... ) -
Frustration and Art
I could type. I want to type. I just am not sure entirely what to say. I can't convey the feeling of wanting to emulate my icon effectively in words right now. It's hard to word when all the things are going on at once. It's hard to write, it's hard to draw, it's hard to make music... it's hard to do a lot of things while shit is in commotion. ( Read more... ) -
I have a lot to think about now...
It is almost as though I am dragging out something that really should have ended long ago. It should have changed, it should have progressed by now, and I am stifling its growth and progression. Worse yet, it is for my own selfish needs and desires. This is most unfortunate. I at the least need these things to be fully known and understood by all ( Read more... ) -
I am a horrible person
"Do like I told you/Stay away from me ( Read more... ) -
Apologies
I'm sorry that I am tired ( Read more... ) -
Apartment Blues
So, after a hard night of drinking and hanging out (so hard that I woke up still very intoxicated), I got a call from my apartment complex asking me to bring down a resume and have an interview. I managed to look presentable in a timely manner, and conducted myself quite well at the interview (for a job, not to keep my apartment, I already put in ( Read more... ) -
Nobody's Baby Now...
I am nobody's family. I am not anyone particularly special or anything to anyone. Supposedly I am, but I'm not. I do technically have relatives, but they're virtually strangers to me. Perhaps it is my fault. I am never really treated as the special person others would make me out to be. I am fussed at, I am berated, I am ignored, I am hated. I am ( Read more... ) -
On the topic of children... (pt. 1)
I rather hate that the only thing I find that I have to talk about with anyone that's not in the stage of their life where they're still finding themselves, preferably through booze (etc.), is my roommate's children. Why is offspring the only thing that anyone seems to talk about anymore? I have met people with degrees, varied and exciting lives, ( Read more... ) -
Persecution Dream
So at some point yesterday I actually looked at details and photos of the Sophie Lancaster incident in the UK. Only fitting since I felt very goth yesterday, I suppose. I didn't read that for a bedtime story, but it obviously affected my dreams ( Read more... ) -
Pain Ponderance
As I limp and stumble around my apartment alone, tears threatening to form out of the corner of my eyes, I can't help but think upon that which I've never had. How wonderful would it be to have someone in your life, in your home no less, who actually cared about your well-being? How nice would it be to have someone who actually made effort to do ( Read more... )