a city named for us

[lilywhitelilith]

Title: a city named for us
Author: Telis (theaerosolkid)
Rating: R
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Summary: Brendon and Ryan and BrendonandRyan and still the bitch of living. Companion to that long in darkness pined.
Word Count: 2565
Disclaimer: Fake, fake, fake.
A/N: Happy birthday to castoffstarter! Angst for you from me. Thanks a billion to notshybutsly for the beta ♥ Seriously. I could

Comments

[softlyforgotten]

Oh, my heart. I love this; the way it slots into the gaps left by the other one (not gaps, that's not the right word. like a jigsaw puzzle.) and brings this whole new dimension to the idea of it; I love how utterly patient Ryan is, and the conversations with Pete (oh, Pete), and most of all the idea of watching someone you love hurting themselves and not knowing how to stop.

And I love not-subtle!Ryan and that scene of Ryan watching Brendon in the parking lot just broke my heart. And Brendon re-learning 'his own way to live with himself'; so beautiful and quiet and hopeful, god.

You amaze me with everything you write. ♥

[theaerosolkid]

Thank you so much!

Right back atcha, sweetie ♥

[shiola_shiola]

Thank you, thank you, thank you. This was just what my starved little OTP brain was waiting for. \o/

"What if he doesn't?" Ryan asks.

"Then you call 911 when he overdoses on ADHD medication, obviously," Pete says. Ryan's throat goes dry and his head spins.

"That's not funny," Ryan says roughly, voice spiked with vehemence.

"I wasn't joking," Pete says. "It's just. I'm trying to say. You can't control how bad things can get, okay? You can't keep him safe if he doesn't want to be."

Yeah, ouch. I probably re-read those lines four times. :[

Time and time again, girl. You bring the best angst. I love getting Ryan's perspective of this story, because I remember reading Brendon's and aching to know more about where Ryan was coming from. Like, he was a weird shadow that kept passing through Brendon's moments. All shape-shifty and vague, thanks to Brendon's perspectives. I don't even know. This made sense of all that and it was hurt in all the right ways. The good ways.

Yeaaahhhh, I love you and this. <3

[theaerosolkid]

OTP! It's the best ever, obvs.

That little chunk of conversation was so tough to write, I re-did it about a million times, so I'm extra glad to hear that it worked so well for you ♥

I love you too, dude.

[jzbell]

<3

First of all, I have to say I always look forward to reading your Brendon, whether from inside his own head or inside Ryan's. My own grasp on him always seems so flimsy in light of your construction of him. He seems very real.

I also like how this not only clarifies where Ryan was really coming from, but takes everything a little further; it really is like the next (logical!) step in the progression, with Brendon maybe starting to find his center again, to find Ryan again. Speaking purely selfishly, I totally needed that breath of hope right now. *clings to OTP etc. etc.*

[theaerosolkid]

Aaaw, thanks. That seriously means so much to hear.

I think we were all in the mood for a little hope ♥

also, um. i considered issuing a keltie warning for you. should i have?

[theaerosolkid]

I have...no idea what to make of that comment! Which means it is a Gina original fersure.

♥ happy birthday!!

[notshybutsly]

If only every Ryan/Brendon fic was half this good. I really do love this Telis. Thanks for keeping the otp alive.

[theaerosolkid]

Thanks for all your help, dude. Seriously, couldn't have done it without you.