Irrevocably Combined

[lilywhitelilith]

Title: Irrevocably Combined
Author: Telis (theaerosolkid)
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Summary: Wherein Ryan really just needs some time to figure a few things out.
Word Count: 3078
Disclaimer: Fake, fake, fake.
A/N: Another outtake from the spiritual agony longfic, ahaha. This one came about because I wrote the opening scene and really adored it,

Comments

[frequencies]

This made my heart ache so much, with the indecision and the inaction and everything else.

Brendon pillows his head on his forearms and Ryan reaches out to stroke the short soft hairs at the base of his neck, and doesn't, held back by Jon's sharp glance, aware of a potential conflict even as his head is obviously pounding.

I think my favorite thing about your writing is the way you sort of balance what your characters are doing and what they're feeling. There's so much emotion in that one sentence and it's all rooted in a move Ryan doesn't make.

Ryan watches his silhouette and sleeps without his headphones that night so he can listen to Brendon's breathing.

Ohh, I like that so much, and this, too:

Ryan wakes up the next morning in the warm circle of Brendon's limbs, mouth pressed wet and soft to his collarbone.

kljsdals. Yeah.

"Why does everybody want me to mourn?" Ryan asks as he settles over Brendon on the couch, resting his head on Brendon's chest and twining their legs together, tired of waiting for sleepwalking, doing away

[theaerosolkid]

(you know it's for you, love)

You give the best compliments! I'm thrilled you like this, honestly I am. I aimed for subtle and I'm glad I made it there. I owe this entire fic to the soundtrack for Little Miss Sunshine, and of course you.

[frequencies]

You deserve them! I love that soundtrack. :)

[lemonsherry]

sigh, this was just...everything. So beautiful and brilliant, even the hot oil just made it work.

great job.

[theaerosolkid]

:D Thanks! I was writing the hot oil scene and then I looked in the mirror and said, Self. This is a shower scene with two adorable little 'mos. I think the fic needs some sex. Wheee!

[notshybutsly]

This is even more beautiful when it's not four in the morning.

"Death is a stupid concept," Ryan says the next morning in the shower with Brendon's hands buried in his hair.

"Not really," Brendon says.

"It's too permanent," Ryan argues.

"I think that's kind of the point," Brendon tells him, and squirts the last of the shower gel into his palms.
Favorite part. It's just so very...true. I love it.

[theaerosolkid]

Thank you! I'm really gld you liked it :)

[rock_my_town]

This is really just....omg...such an amazing look at Brendon and Ryan's relationship.

Brendon wants him, this is not a necessarily simple concept; he wants Brendon, which is slightly simpler; Spencer and Jon want them both to be happy and this is simplest of all.

That was really perfect and so so beautiful, and just wow...this whole thing was great. I really love fics that explore Ryan coming to terms with his dad's death, an di just love when Brendon's there with him...Seriously great job on this, there was nothing I didn't love (omg them taking showers together and Brendon washing his hair, the best!)

[theaerosolkid]

Thank you!!

The shower scenes were so fun to write; water is a great tool to use in storytelling. I'm glad you liked it :)

[disarm_d]

Ah, this was lovely.

I loved how so much of the story was centered around them bathing and sleeping together, because those are such domestic and intimate things.

Brendon saying that he cried for Ryan's Dad because he knew that Ryan wouldn't, and that people far smarter than the two of them thought mourning was healthy, was just fantastic. I didn't realize that this was set just when Ryan's Dad died until midway through the story, and I think that worked well. It added to the sort of ... detached? Surreal? tone. Added to the characterization of Ryan's denial, definitely.

The way you wrote this with a bunch of short little scenes worked well! Each one felt like this little fully defined piece in time.

<3

[theaerosolkid]

I'm so glad that you liked the flow of it! When I was reading it over, I was thinking, Hm. Are people going to think that I just threw that in there? Is it too sudden? I'm really pleased that it seems to have worked pretty well, so, thanks.

:)