Just breathe.

I just have to remember that -I'm- the one in charge of my life. Not Tom, not Mhairi, not my Mum or my grandparents or my boss. I AM.

So I wont let any of them get me down. I wont let me get me down.

I -am- better than this.

... just gotta start listening to my own song instead of somebody else's.

I am my own person.

Love,
Jade.

do not get me wrong i cannot wait for you to come home
for now you're not here and i'm not there
it's like we're on our ownto figure it out consider how to find a place to stand ( Read more... )

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The thing about letting people in is that it's incredibly easy for them to hurt you without evern realising they are doing it. And it's just so easy to give fake excuses to explain the sadness away. I understand that this is her passive way of helping me through yet another break-down. But I don't want passive; I want someone in my face, making me ( Read more... )

Now that it's slightly easier to put words together in coherent sentences... well everything still doesn't make any sense. My life feels like it's on a collision course of my own design, but it seems I've forgotten what I designed. Not that I should think that my life could unravel itself from its' current tangle in four days. But it was a nice ( Read more... )

I wonder if my parents have realised that they have officially screwed over my life ( Read more... )

It's amazing how quickly your life can fall apart in front of your eyes. Or maybe it's just my happiness that's unraveling in front of my eyes. Still up in the air on that one. I'm so over everybody and everything ( Read more... )

... my Mum was told by some person when I was fairly young, about 8, that I was going to become a doctor when I grew. Everyone in my family, including me scoffed about it; it's fairly well know that I used to be rather squeamish. And I still hate the sight of my own blood (which for the record I think is reasonable to prefer keeping the blood in ( Read more... )

No, I'm not dead. Just haven't felt the need to post ( Read more... )

Why do I feel like I'm never good enough for him? Or his friends ( Read more... )