my love is on the line ( Read more... )

Sigh. I feel so bad now. I spent all afternoon bitching about being on the fringe with my fairly new circle of friends and how my best friend is slowly ignoring me more and more and blah, blah, blah. And then what happens. I get to pubcrawl last night and I get the warmest, friendliest reception in the world. And Mhairi and TJ spent the whole night ( Read more... )

I have found out recently that I have a new pet hate, one that is fairly relevant to everyone who is used to talking and socialising over the internet ( Read more... )

And now I am almost feeling well-adjusted. WTF? I'm going to go insane if my emotions keep doing this to me, I swear.

I feel like I'm losing my marbles. Or someone is slowly stealing them one by one until I have nothing.

I envy him. In the way that no matter what happens in his life, there is a home that he can go to that has warmth and laughter and hugs and unconditional love. What is left of my broken family seems so unreachable to me, and even the replacement family I've tried to build around myself seems superficial and likely to crack at anytime ( Read more... )

It's amazing how when something just keeps hurting eventually your brain just reaches a fuck-off point and you switch off. That's what my brain has done in the last couple of days with this whole debacle. Realised that I can't properly deal with it and has shoved it into that place where all the things I don't deal with go to fester. It's gonna ( Read more... )

I can imagine Mhairi singing this to me? Is that retarded? It's kinda reminding me that everything is gonna be okay. When I feel up to it, I'll rant about the acoustics-sex-goddess that is KT Tunstall. I found 'Eye to the Telescope' at just the right time, seriously ( Read more... )

So now we've had the chat. And it's really over now (we're not going to talk about how I utterly embarrassed myself). And we're going to be friends. I still get hugs though, so it's all good. It sounds weird I know, but I miss hugs a lot. With Mum being gone, I don't get so many these days ( Read more... )

So Tom has finally laid down his verdict. Well, not to me, but a little birdy (a reliable little birdy) has told me his answer. No, no and no. On all counts. Seems I'm just not worth the emotional trauma I end up inflicting on him ( Read more... )