i had a really strange dream last night. i was talking to someone about God and how something in my life wasnt making sense right now. How no matter how i tried to figure it out, it just wasnt making sense. this person told me that i was doing it all wrong. and that i had to sit closer to the fire. and then id find what i was looking for. so i was ( Read more... )

going to ct was awesome this weekend. having never been to a cantata i didnt know what to expect. pretty worn out. but blessed. so it was all worth it. i was up til 5 this morning working on a poster..trying to send it to kinkos. failing at sending it to kinkos. but glad that i did. i ended up driving around boston for a while. eventualy getting ( Read more... )

i want to surround myself with people who make me happy. i want to be around people that enjoy my company just because. i never want to feel like i have to act a certain way or be a certain person again. tonight was awesomee. being in God's presence is such a blessing. and a healing. and its so easy to lose sight of that. and being in fellowship ( Read more... )

"i'll be praying all day tomorrow for you. no worries girl, God's holding you close."

i dont miss the boy. the boys still there.

i miss my best friend.

last night i was going to bed and trying to pull my blanket up in the dark. everytime i pulled on it there was a light that would glow from the inside of the blanket. in my sleep deprived state, i figured the following ( Read more... )

what am i supposed to do.

theres this funny truth about art that applies to all disciplines..in that art conveys the human experience. i hate to get all "artsy" but its something ive been thinking about alot lately. its one of the hardest things for me to do is to really convey human experience. and this is the way it is because in relating to human experience, the artist ( Read more... )

i had a dream the other night that i was at stop and shop and i was checking food out with my mom back home in agawam. then out of nowhere sara walks in with a full face tattoo. hahah. she was like yeah im back home from barca for the weekend. then i woke up. and proceeded to throw up in the bathroom ( Read more... )

i was watching a movie some time ago. and one of the characters was talking about "last looks"..the way someone looks at you like they know its going to be the last time they ever see you. the thing about last looks is that you know its a last look by of the way someones expression changes..almost like they feel sorry for you ( Read more... )