Oh gods, I'm so sorry. There are no useful words for me to say, I know, even though I want to try. Just...I can only imagine how much I would want it to be over if it was me. It's like your body said "Hey, how can I make this whole thing EVEN WORSE? Yeah, let's do that."
Thanks, stupid body :(
::lots and lots and lots of hugs::
Oh, and ::thwacks the people lecturing you about how many kids you should have or want to have, just on principle of the thing::
It's hard, isn't it, when there aren't any words. Because we are wordy people, and when there aren't words, it's just... weird and kind of distressing and definitely frustrating. I know what you mean about wanting to try
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They let me stay yesterday, thank fuck. I would have accepted it if they didn't feel comfortable proceeding with my bronchitis, but having to wait the weekend would have just... it would not have been good. I would have been a very, very unhappy Jay.
My body's recovering better than I expected (kind of a nice surprise there, it wasn't as bad as I feared). My heart I think is still kind of on hold... I'm a little distracted by being fuzzy headed from the anesthesia and pain killers, and the part where my brain kind of keeps going 'I really thought that was going to be horrific and it really wasn't and huh'. But that's coming, and I just... have to give myself permission to not be okay, and to have that be okay. I'm working on it.
Oh, ouch. I'm so very sorry. I wish there was something I could do to alleviate the pain, or, y'know, wave my hand so you didn't have to struggle with fertility stuff. Best I can offer is some internet hugs, and hope this is just a slight hiccup, and the future will improve. Lord knows you deserve some good tidings.
Fertility stuff is a pain in the... well, not ass, but anything else is going to sound terribly rude.
Internet hugs are good. I'm also following all of your baby news as you post it--it's weird, but instead of making me sad to see people having good baby news, it's a reminder that it's still happening out there, and can happen for me too (I hope). Keep cooking that little one, and good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!
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Thanks, stupid body :(
::lots and lots and lots of hugs::
Oh, and ::thwacks the people lecturing you about how many kids you should have or want to have, just on principle of the thing::
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My body's recovering better than I expected (kind of a nice surprise there, it wasn't as bad as I feared). My heart I think is still kind of on hold... I'm a little distracted by being fuzzy headed from the anesthesia and pain killers, and the part where my brain kind of keeps going 'I really thought that was going to be horrific and it really wasn't and huh'. But that's coming, and I just... have to give myself permission to not be okay, and to have that be okay. I'm working on it.
<3 back. Thank you.
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Internet hugs are good. I'm also following all of your baby news as you post it--it's weird, but instead of making me sad to see people having good baby news, it's a reminder that it's still happening out there, and can happen for me too (I hope). Keep cooking that little one, and good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!
*hugs back*
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And it's okay, because there aren't magic words for this. I just... I had to talk it out, and I'm glad that people were there to listen. Thank you.
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