What are the signs of alcoholism? The following are true of an elegant, smart person I love ( Read more... )

Okay, in the spirit of Julia Cameron am going to use this journal as my morning pages. One - teenager is getting to me - more than she should. Am looking at her getting overweight (is she?) and thinking why in goddess' name can't she, won't she, walk, in any way move, the length of herself. Each and every comment from her to me is a demand, a ( Read more... )

Good honking grief. The teenager is a marauding invader with bloodletting suckers. My hands smell like fish, as the local construction guy did not deal with the fish and I had to do it. Have been ingesting 99% cocoa chocolate and am flooding enough blood to float a nicely decorated barge. Teaching tomorrow, my first class - and I am to fill ( Read more... )

Finally got over rejection of my novel manuscript enough to send it out again, this time to an agent my famous brother says is a fiend whose hand no one will shake, no one in a room full of all the writers he knows. Still, there is an energy about this agent I liked when I saw him interviewed. He had just taken on an experimental writer whose work ( Read more... )

Strawberry Kohl has broken up with her first boyfriend, and I'm sad, although feminist reasons like her self actualization say yes to the breakup. Still, as her mother, as a woman who has broken up with her fair share, I see her first boyfriend as decent, kind, intelligent, sweet, caring, handsome, hardworking, musical, imaginative, and loving - ( Read more... )

Agh. Caught Taurus' sore throat etc. Am longing to go to Edinburgh with such intensity I can hardly stand it. Moan moan, whinge whinge, feeling inadequate, especially as Famous Sibling visited and there is that weird tension between us, though I have always loved him ( Read more... )

Hope my breakthrough, the one that sets me free from finding fault with others and with myself, will last. I hope it was not an ephemeral insight that will blow away with the next wind. I feel it as knowledge now, more than the deep, energy releasing revelation with which it began, but knowledge is better than ignorance ( Read more... )

After years in the desert, I seem to be finding spirit nourishment somewhere - not, g-d forbid, in the usual places ( Read more... )

Agent sent my novel manuscript back to me, with rejection note ( Read more... )

Just applied a third time for teaching position - bureacracy dictated a third letter from me. Have not had to deal with such bureaucracy for a long time, and dread what it portends. Told my contact at the university again that I need time to prepare for teaching this course, should I get to teach it, in a way I feel my students will deserve. ( Read more... )