Of all the Facebook posts, all the blogs, the book I'm reading, the places I went, the news I watched etc. .... this is what stood out to me, hit me in the face, rather ( Read more... )

A few days ago someone very wise said that it isn't that I don't trust people it is that I don't trust myself. My eyes opened really wide and I complentated it for several days.... I think there is a lot of validity to it. Something inside of me does not trust me to make wise choices. That is sad, very sad because I am very careful. So, when I don' ( Read more... )

If I ever pick a goddess it would be her. 
The Goddess of never not broken.

You know that feeling when you have just gone through a breakup, or lost your job, and everything is terrible and terrifying and you don’t know what to do, and you find yourself crying in a pile on your bedroom floor, barely able to remember how to use the phone, desperately ( Read more... )

Dear readers, sorry about the errors. It is really hard to post from the phone ( Read more... )

I have lived on a farm most of my life. Even when I lived in the Big City I dealt with death... the loss of Cowpa, a friend, a kitten I had ( Read more... )

I just came back from the post office and as I was coming up the hill the self talk started in. I'm experiencing a lot of anxiety because I did not do much today. Because of my background I am never, ever satisfied with myself or what I do or don't do ... and I always think that there is something that I could have done better. It isn't how I ( Read more... )

It has really changed my life! I don't "want" right now for anything. I clearly believe that I have all I need. I have not wanted to pick up and eat off plan or do anything to numb my feelings. I get it ( Read more... )

Well, I think I am going to get a crash course in living in the moment if I am going to make it. My step father is very ill with congestive heart failure. Two years ago when they put the pacemaker in they thought he had another six months ( Read more... )

yeah, but it is MY blog after all.
It is all about putting old ghosts to rest and moving on
and somethings are harder to shake because of the lingering sweetness of it all.

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