i've been pms'ing for the longest fucking time.. or maybe it just seems that way because i haven't had a cigarette in exactly one week. that's right, i'm ACTUALLY quitting. this is the longest i've ever willingly gone without a cigarette since i was 15. you know how they say the first three days are the hardest? well it was opposite for me. they ( Read more... )

Uhhh.
Did I miss something?
Where the hell is everyone?

What... the FUCK... happened to my life?  It's up-side-down, backwards, in-side-out.. It's making me so dizzy, I'm so nauseous. I just got fucked over. Again. Woooooooooo! Go meeeeeeee. Never fucking fails does it ( Read more... )

There are always things I wish I could say to you. There always has been, and never hasn't been. I hold back...everytime.. in fear of what you will think, what you will say, what you won't say, how I'd make you feel, or how you'd make me feel.

Anyway..

I'm drinking so I can just get to sleep. Days have been awesome. New Years was.. But tonight.. ( Read more... )

Fuck with my head like that, I'll fuck with your head back.

Y'know, I remember telling you,--before I came home from Wisconsin--that when I did come home, I didn't want anything to do with you. I wanted you out of my life. This is the last straw.

There is no explanation to be given or heard. Do not ever speak to me again.

We were never meant to live ( Read more... )

uh.........

weed is a better friend to me than booze.
maybe not to you but..
booze fucks me over sometimes.
weed has always had my back.

dun dun dunnnn.

maybe i am in love with weed. hahaaaa
yeah nice wall.
i'm freaking out.

p.s/ i will never make another decision about questional behavior before smoking at least a bowl.

So, I don't really know what the deal is with this "wall" that I've "subconsciously" put up...

(I'm not sure if that's even what I'm doing)

...But I was hoping that the feeling would have subsided by now. I guess it hasn't. I'm kind of a little fed up with it to be honest.

I can't even lay down next to someone without feeling...

Feeling...

What's the ( Read more... )

livejournal sucks.

ok so, my birthday is coming up. it's the 12th. it's on a FRIDAY and it's gonna be a FULL MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! idk if full moons mean anything to you guys but, i love full moon parties. BETTER BE DOING SOMETHING CRAZY AND STUFFFFFF