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June went by really fast ( Read more... ) -
Meh 2.0
Fucking hating life
Out of pain meds and in pain
Depressed
I've had a counselor a few months now
Can't tell her everything though
Tried to reach out to someone
They didn't care enough to listen
Nobody gives a Fuck about me
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Meh
James got hit by a car and almost died ( Read more... ) -
I wanna be sedated
Yep.
Too bad I ran out of ativan and have crazy anxiety.
Possibly having withdrawals from running out of (prescribed) meds. A few, all at once. I Feel like shit.
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Feeling a little better. -
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I want to kill myself.
Nobody cares. Why should I?
Barely eating or drinking but I'm fat so that won't work.
Sleeping as much as possible to avoid pain, physical and emotional. Maybe I'll die in my sleep from sleep apnea from being fat.
Cant get myself to actually do it. -
none.
i feel like shit. i look like shit ( Read more... ) -
update.like.woah 1.0
Hanging out with lots of old friends lately. Good to reconnect. Been trying to force myself to be social ( Read more... ) -
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One of the worst birthdays I've had. Cool, people on Facebook said happy birthday. They cared enough to take 5 seconds when Facebook reminded them. That's nice. But did anyone take the time to actually Spend time with me? Not really ( Read more... ) -
stuff and things
4 months post-op. chest looks really good. Still sinking in that I never have to wear a binder again!
stopped taking amitriptyline. Got a job.
Things died off with the girl from okc. Date with different okc girl later today.
James wants me to go visit Portland. So I got a stupid job.