with so many people to love in my life, why do i worry about one? but you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun. and it's so hard to do and so easy to say, but sometimes - sometimes , you just have to walk away, walk away and head for the door. we've tried the goodbyes so many days. we walk in the same direction so that we ( Read more... )

and this is all i have to say [Aug. 11th, 2004|01:54 am ( Read more... )

i hate people that hurt me.
i hate myself.

i love that it's january 2nd and it feels like march ( Read more... )

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see lately.. i've been beating the shit out of myself thinking i'm so fucked up and so shitty to everyone. convincing myself i have some sort of drinking problem. and that i was seriously hurting the people around me. but it hit me last night. the reason i freak out when i've been drinking, or the reason i freak out period is because of the people ( Read more... )

i think for every good day lately, there's been about 4 bad days. it's not a fair ratio. but it's my doing. i'm having to hate myself more and more for the shit i've been doing to myself and the people around me. basically i don't think things could get any worse right now. and if they did i honestly don't know if i could handle it. 18 days until ( Read more... )

okay.. so last night i went to chi with rylo and someone else ( Read more... )

things have been rough. stupid rough though. i make things difficult for myself. and i need to quit. actually i do quit. take this positively. i'm quitting everything. in hopes of cash flow, and bettering myself. i miss my kam.

i miss katherine anais myers ( Read more... )