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[linkdx]

yea, so i guess i hurt people. I don't know how this happend. I was always the person that everyone liked, that could comfort them when they were feeling down. I still can I guess, but not like I used to

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[josit28]

keep your chin up sweetie. you are and will always be the understanding, caring, and sweet alonzo i met some years ago.

and as you tell me, if you need me, you know where i am.

all my love, josie

[aldric_stien]

thanks. :)

btw, is it anoying to reply to a comment with the opposite lj profile? b/c i seem to do it all the time, lol

[josit28]

i dont think so, but im not the one with two lj's ;)
do you know who mr. anonymous is?

i love you!!! ~Josie

[luminum]

I feel the same way, only a lttile different of a situation. I'm a very reflective, empathetic person, too. But when I'm with people, somehow I become this clown and I say things that people take offense to when none was really meant. It gets bad because now I get the feeling that my friends don't know how easily I get hurt, or how badly some things hurt me, which makes it more impossible to speak with them about it. Pride, I guess.

It's a tough situation you're in, but I think you should just calmly explain this to Amanda. If she still doesn't understand, then you've done your best.

Plus, all those other things (v-games, reading) you can slowly start phasing in. I was the same way last year, but I just decided to read a book before I went to bed and now I've worked it in just fine.

[linkdx]

thanks for the advice. It helps a lot.

[nate_z]

It really is a thin line between love and hate. I never understood that until my own experiences. But it's like you're friend said, just explain things as best you can (with your actual voice if possible), and if it's not enough, there's nothing you can do. Relationships are 50/50, even and especially in the end.

You are a great person bro. You've been through a lot, and you're still carrying on. I respect that, and I know you'll get through this too. You just need time.

[linkdx]

thanks, as I've already said.

[anonymous]

I'm sure that Amanda doesn't hate you. She may be hurt because you end up doing things that she would have liked to have done with you with other people. You didn't let HER know where she fit into your life and as a result it left her feeling hurt and confused as to what this relationship meant to you. She was trying to get to know you and you never really let her. It was probably frustrating to her. She would hear things about you from mutual friends who read your journals but not hear these things from you. How would you feel if the situation was reversed?

[linkdx]

In some ways I think it was.

[anonymous]

what? you mean you think things were reversed? maybe you're the one that hates Amanda then

[linkdx]

not compeatly reversed, more to the effect that it is hard to know what she thinks. I'm not blaming her, I usually end up blaming myself for things, but neither of those would be right alone.

I need to talk to her about all of this. that is the only thing that will help.