why do i feel so distant and out of the loop when i didn't even leave...oh well i guess i am fairly decent at making new friends...i have hung out with matt peden and matt knicl quite a bit lately. it is fun....just sort of different. School will be enough in itself to take my mind off of things plus i have a billion other activities and work. I ( Read more... )

I think I should have no other mortal wants, if I could always have plenty of music. It seems to infuse strength into my limbs and ideas into my brain. Life seems to go on without effort, when I am filled with music.
- George Elliot

… and having heard… that when a man in a forest thinks he is going in a straight line, in reality he is going in a circle, I did my best to go in a circle, hoping in this way to go in a straight line. For I stopped being half-witted and became sly, whenever I took the trouble. And my head was a storehouse of useful knowledge. And if I did not go in ( Read more... )

so i was going to write a really long entry but after reading a bunch i am way too tired...i think it is odd how i feel about spanish...i hate it but then love it...just sitting here listening to spanish music is nice...drowns out the shrill sound of my mother yelling at me. So i was so so so so so excited about guard...i got captain and though i ( Read more... )

today was nice. many things off my mind since i had lots of time to think last night because i couldn't fall asleep...still can't get used to the fact that seniors only have 4 days left...so scary. i woke up at 5 this morning and wrote a 5 page paper on a book i didn't read...that was definetly good. then got ready just in time for school. ( Read more... )

life...wow how can a simple 4 letter word be so complex?? Need to get in the mind set to write an analysis....but i have already done enough analysizing...about my own life. ah!!!!!

You know, I never know if I am happy anymore. At times I am content, others I am not. I wonder to myself could things be better and other times I think wow I am so lucky. I guess I am just ready for something new and exciting to happen in my life. For school to be over. To lay under the clouds in the cool grass carefree with people that truly ( Read more... )

ah so hard to read because i left my glasses in the back of jeff's car along with my prom dress ( his dad already commented on how bad that one looked...oh well ( Read more... )

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so reading my last entry i realized i went off on a random tangent like i usually do so let me try again...kansas..i get to the concert all stressed feeling really incredibly sick after scarfing down 2 pbs and js and 2 tylenol i thought i could handle it...i have stomach problems alot when i stress...but never throw up...well get outta my car and ( Read more... )