A full day

[lionboy]

I went out with my friend Dave last night and went to Newbury Comics and Compact Discs. Sort of like a Hot Topic only with CD's and collectibles. Oh ya and reasonable prices. You rarely see those at Hot Topic. They've got a lot of Japanese Animation action figures and lava lamps and generally cool stuff. Anyway, in the "If no one buys these

Comments

[sulphuroxide]

well, as i recall from your previous entries and what youve said... you might feel as though your past is a burden unto yourself. so first off, deal with that, and i guess... let it go and take each moment as a new one, a breath if fresh air in which you can take to define yourself ^^

[thegratefulone]

umm...i think you should spend some time with yourself and get to know you. accept yourself. oh, and you might want to look into yoga. it's AMAZING. (it's a panacea)

and by the way, i'm danielle. i stumbled on your journal. hope you don't mind, but i really liked your story about your martial arts teacher. it reminded me of my grandfather; he's in town and telling all sorts of childhood stories. yeah, well then, nice to pseudo-meet you.

self acceptance...

[lionboy]

I just typed a whole huge response and this friggin' thing erased it. Crap. Maybe this will be a little more to the point tho. Anywayz... Self acceptance is a difficult thing for me. I don't know if you read any of my other entries but I've always been taught that I'm unacceptable, that I'm worthless, that I'm unwelcome in the world. My father was verbally abusive and no matter what I ever did it was not good enough. My classmates in school reinforced that. They were not exactly nice to me. To the point where in junior high school strangers would come up to me and just make fun of me because they could tell I was an easy target. Most of them seemed to know my name too. I thought I deserved it just because that's how I had learned to treat myself. I thought that it must be some sort of flaw in me and that if I changed myself I would somehow become acceptable to everyone. That there was something wrong with me and everyone could see it. I tried to shoehorn myself into different identities looking for one that would be

self love

[thegratefulone]

i'm sorry to hear that. but not sorry that you've realized it. that's probably a hugely important first step. what i've been trying to do with myself is, when i look back at things i did/how i was, etc, i either smile or i let it go. like, the things i'm unhappy with, i have to come to grips with. say, ok, i'm human. i blah blah blah beacause blah blah blah whatever and i'm ok with it. it's cool with me. i am who i am and i wouldn't want that to change because every person is beautiful. and unique. and WONDERFUL deep down. umm...sorry if that sounds too preachy.

and onward: yeah, so i got to your journal through dorky hippie. out of curiosity i clicked on you and read a bit of your journal. i got to her through something grateful dead related. i was shirking my homework today.

Re: self love

[thegratefulone]

oh wow! i just read the things you are 'interested in'. so weird- a friend of mine just lent me princess mononoke and i just saw it! (*shakes head slowly*) oh, and i'd never heard of dvojak until my dad gave me a cd of dvojak (same as dvorak? or am i making a non-connection here?) in prague some time ago. and it rocks! that's so funny...i like your interests. oh, except for princess mononoke. it was corny as hell. ha!