we've all been pushed too far today

[lipglossfaerie]

oh man. I do not know where to start.

Just got home from the funeral. not fun.

but somehow I came out of there feeling more angry than sad...

Comments

[mulder911]

i feel sorry for your loss,

I dont' think that its wrong for you to think about what songs should be played at your funeral, I'm sure many other people have done that already... especially one person in particular, was a friend of mine who passed away in the WTO towers, she much older than me, but she was the best person i knew...

she had a little note along with her will which included the music that she wanted to be played and a few things that she wanted to say to everyone who she cared about.

it was nice to read your post! I hope that you have a good week coming up ahead of you....

So many things running through my mind after reading that

[wheatman]

Primarily it made me think of my great grandpa whom we called Bops. No one knows why, we just did. He was the last and only funeral I remember going to. September 1993 i believe. Don't ask me why I remember that. i just remember being comfused about what was going on. i knew but didn't know the full effect. It's really only affected me in the past three years or so when I've really thought about it.

With the music, I have no clue what I would want to play. For me that's something I'd want to see what other people chose for me.

This is my funeral day (and I've told my parents so they have to do it) You have the funeral and the reception. Whoever wants to speak is more than welcome to. Actually I think I'd want my Mom to pick the music for me, with the help of my friends, but chosen as a group. Then at night there would be a massive party. People better be dancing but you don't have to if you don't want to.

Anyway I'm taking up alot of space here.

I hope you're feeling better soon

[sinnamon_grrrl]

Awww I'm sorry *hugs*.
Will say a prayer for them.

[medelia]

it's obviously pretty natural to be thinking things like this at a funeral. You can actually think about death, but it takes a direct experience with death or seeing everyone gathering together to say goodbye to someone to actually feel it's full weight.

I went through the same things when I went to jason's funeral over christmas, it wasn't my second funeral, but it was harder than the first one since it was one where I had to deal with an open casket and someone just younger than I being in it.

I also spent a lot of time that day thinking about my own funeral and how I'd want to have it...I agree with more of remembering great things and less about the prayer...there's never enough focus on the person themselves rather than the bible...

I hope you're alright and taking some postive thoughts from this...if there's anything you need, or that I can do you you just name it.
I'm thinking about you...be ok.

[ex_harmlessk705]

your post was so nicely expressed.. i can't put together my reply right now, it would be far too scattered. but check your email soon.. *squeezes*