20 pounds down. Fuck yeah!

For anyone interested, get The Biggest Loser Bootcamp dvd. With it I've been losing 3-3.5 pounds a week & its pretty fun. For working out.

So I have to drink a lot of water, about 100 oz which is like 3 liters. That's fine, but I'm sick of waking up to pee at night. 2 times since I've went to bed 2 hours ago. Yeesh. . . It will all be worth it in the end ( Read more... )

8.6 pounds down! Its getting easier everyday & I'm actually starting to like exercising. Sometimes.

I am hungry. I don't like going out to eat & ordering the most bland thing on the menu. Hopefully it doesn't taste as bad as it sounds. Ugh.

Since I don't use this as an actual journal anymore I decided to use this as my weight loss journal. I don't think anyone reads it, but maybe if I put it here, somewhere somewhat public I will stick to it.
Anyway, day 3, 4.6 pounds down, 76.6 (ideally) to go.
I can do this.

Everything is constantly entertaining.
Mildly for me, more so for others around me.
I don't need, nor want, entertaining.
Somehow the lines between entertaining & creepy have gotten blurred.
Something has to change, damnit.

Is ridiculous right now.

I feel like I'm in a place that no one understands. Or at least no one cares to understand. It's never made sense to me why addicts relapse after being clean for a year & a half - two years, why throw it all away? Suddenly it makes sense. I'm not going to, so no one get their panties in a bunch. I just fully understand. This is the point where your ( Read more... )

Shit's been crazy. I have yet to figure out if it's in a good way or not. Guess I'll find out sooner or later.

My phone has been blowin' up all night.
Single fuckin' line.
Sleep.