-
(Untitled)
There are a few better days and many worse days. Today is a worse day. Every muscle hurts and I'm crying. So exhausted, so dead. I want to crawl in a corner and not move for the rest of the day. I should go home ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
How could I be so stupid to agree to this? I knew I wouldn't like it but it makes me panic. all the time. worst of all: I'm supposed to be super happy about it. So I smile and pretend and nothing's fine. It's like watching myself from behind a two-sided mirror, barely able to breathe, shaking my head that anyone would believe this sharade ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
CONCENTRATE ! ! ! -
(Untitled)
I'm worried. Dead worried about pan. He's one of the most amazing people I've ever met but I don't know I don't remember when I have last seen him really happy. His mum died of a mysterious illness a year ago, his dad had several strokes and suffers from bone cancer. His one aunt died of leukemia , his cousin died of a brain tumor a couple ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I can't believe I just had to cancel my invitation to a conference in Sweden. I love Sweden and I love speaking on Alice in wonderland. And I even had a full grant, 500 euro plus free accommodation. There's never a grant! Shit.
I so wish I could have it all and go to Sweden.
-
(Untitled)
Sometimes I have troubles seeing humans as humans. Instead I see them as bones and vessels and tightly stretched skin over bloody flesh, as eyeballs on thick veins, rolling in their sockets. It's like a bad zombie movie and I have to grab the table to not run screaming from whoever is talking to me. Sometimes I feel like an alien sent to earth to ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I have 8 band aids on my feet and knees and I accidentally shoved a pencil several centimeters deep into my palm. It throbs like hell.
This is do not my day.
Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.
-
(Untitled)
You will return home and than you'll tell your friends how much this sucks and it's all my fault and I hate it. I really want you to have a great time here but nothing works out
Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.
