You ever fall asleep typing and you woke up with about three pages of k's? It took me a while to scroll through them all and delete them.

I feel that day after day I'm failing more and more as a human. I just don't have what it takes to be human. My faults, my desires, my values, they just don't add up to human. My beliefs and values set me apart from people, and because of this they fear and detest me. Why? Because I'm not like them? That's no reason to avoid someone. They ( Read more... )

The fire within me is dying down. I thought I was ready to move on with my life; walk away from my most recent troubles, but I guess not. Bad things tend to repeat themselves in my life. There is no studying the past to prevent those mistakes in the future. There is just the undenyable fact that they will return to haunt me. A lot of it is my ( Read more... )

Emptiness is engulfing me. I sit here slouched in my chair; absolutely no feeling. I'm not quite asleep, but not really awake either. I just feel completely blank in mind and body. Every movement like through liquid. Straining, yet smooth flowing. The hum of my computer the only sound. When I think about it, the sound grows louder. When I ( Read more... )

A movie I watched today inspired some thoughts. I am flooded with personal problems, which I really need to overcome. When faced with your problems and fears, taking yourself to another place mentally is not the answer. The only way you are ever going to get over your fears is to face them. I guess that even goes for death. There were some ( Read more... )

In some aspects of reality, I can see right through things, as if my brain could process all of the factors and see anything, anywhere, at any time. A theory of mine, that if you could process all of the variables in the universe, you could predict the future with 100% accuracy, by the laws of cause and effect. I recently found out that was ( Read more... )

I've been feeling so down lately. A friend told me I should write down my thoughts, just to get them out. I'm not sure how this is going to help ( Read more... )