I think I'm about due for an update, although there isn't really much to update. School is going okay. Not too terribly difficult. A friend and I.. (yes I said a friend. Amazing isn't it?.. that I actually have one) are looking into taking up a sport. More as a hobby ( Read more... )

Work went pretty okay last night. Can't complain. I'm going out tonight with a friend, but I'm not sure what time. The problem is I don't know what I'm going to do with myself the rest of the day. Mentally I'm content with my life again, but that's until I see her again monday. I have a test next week. So I guess that solves the problem of ( Read more... )

Today was absolutely crap. I got to school early so I could try to talk to her, and it took me like 10 minutes to find a parking space. I definately a bit miffed over that. I finally got to class, and she was sat there, skimming through a book. I was just about to go talk to her when the damn whore next to her started to talk to her, probably ( Read more... )

Class today. I sat next to her again. I wanted to talk to her so bad, but she was reading for another class and looked really busy. I didn't want to bother her. I should have sat somewhere else. I think I will on wednesday. I'm sensing that I'm not really wanted there, although she's totally nice about it. But then again, what's she going to ( Read more... )

Still nothing to update. I really don't know why I continue to write in this thing. Nobody reads it. Nobody wants to. It's a way for me to get it all out. The fact that other people CAN read it though, helps. I'm writing to myself here, though. I have one friend, and she's not going to be around much anymore. Oh well. I'm back to square- ( Read more... )

I did it. Somehow, I don't know how, but I managed to gather up enough courage to go over and talk to her. It's not easy walking up to a complete stranger, especially one you're attracted to, and starting a conversation. I think it went decent. I asked her if she'd like to maybe go get lunch sometime, but she hurried off (class ran late) and ( Read more... )

Okay, my people skills suck. I saw this girl. She's in my class. She's pretty. Sometimes I find myself looking over at her. A couple times I could swear I have caught her looking back. I wish I had confidence like these other guys out there. They know how to approach girls, and they're really good at talking to them. I'm horrible at it. In ( Read more... )

You know, I tire of my self-loathing. It can really get annoying. I'm almost upset that I don't have any friends. Sometimes I wish I did. It's always nice to have someone to spend quality time with. Someone to open up to and tell EVERYTHING, because they're just that special and important. I've never had anyone like that before. Never found ( Read more... )

There's no real point to life is there? You wake up, go to work, come home, sleep, then do it all again the next day. Our lives here are so blatantly insignificant. Seriously. Even the more highly admired (detested by me) people, what can they say they accomplished? 'I was an actor/actress.' 'I was a basketball star.' Our society worships ( Read more... )

It's getting harder and harder to breathe. The acid flow of air in and out of my lungs as my body is pushed to its limits; torture. The crimson flow from my feet as the skin separates and blisters, turning the ground into shattered glass. Each step intensifies the pain as every muscle in my body is weighed down, straining to go on. The world ( Read more... )