jim just left. and i feel empty. it was better when he was here. i guess that's something twisted when you want to be around someone who couldn't care less..i cried because i kept thinking about all of those times when he said he liked me. and that he'd told his friends or family about me. and he told me i was beautiful and smart. and cool and ( Read more... )

every time a car drives by that sounds like his I'm looking through the blinds. why did today have to be so bad ( Read more... )

after two days. three days of not talking, i sent another message that said "wish you would share my bed. i dont like this cold shoulder thing. miss you." he replied "i'm just thinking about stuff. sorry, sera." of course this puts me into crying mode ( Read more... )

i want someone who really cares about me. who fucking cares enough to call me on a friday night. instead of sending some vague text message. all you get are frowns >:( from now on because quite frankly, you suck right now ( Read more... )

he said "i'll call you tomorrow" last night when he was too sick to have me over. i understand. i understood ( Read more... )

im waaaaiting for him to get here and study. but i know if he does come, by that time i will be too tired to concentrate and maybe mildly annoyed from waiting. he called but i missed it by a minute. =/ i hope he isnt lost or thinks im at the greenlake chocolati or something...

ugh i am tired of his terrible communication skills ( Read more... )

i am bummed because i like Jim a lot. and its not even like i need to be with him-with him, just that i like to be with him and have a good time. and it feels like it doesnt have to be complicated. he is young and fun and i just want to have fun and its nice when there are kind of romantic feelings there. he sent me a myspace message saying how he ( Read more... )

i have this problem with going head-first ( Read more... )

i am driving myself crazy ( Read more... )