There's something wrong with me.

I'm already attracted to another guy. A lot.

And I can't stop thinking about him.

I'm a queer.

so I don't update this thing much ( Read more... )

I went to an arcade with Michael, Bobby, Chase, and Ryan for Ryan's birthday. Stayed at Ryan's and watched Wayne's World. That's about it. Then I couldn't sleep. I stayed up feeling sick to my stomach and heart all night ( Read more... )

And I think of myself no more than a body slowly decaying.
 I'm dying.
 with every day that passes all i feel is decay.
You ask me what is the meaning of life. Decay. Destruction. The slow burn of happiness and youth until you're reduced to a pile of ashes. what, then is the point of our petty lives?
 To try and rot slower?
Our flesh ( Read more... )

my life is over.

Bobby called me today. He went to the hospital to see Courtney with of course no luck. But he stayed until she was gone. They pulled the plug at 5:45. Bobby saw Alexa. My god I can't even begin to imagine how she feels... I see her every day in physics and when she comes back to school I won't know what to say to her without feeling like ( Read more... )

anyway...

Ricky spent the whole weekend with me while the whole damn town was iced over. it was mucho fun

So I guess we're good. Cause I told him how I felt. And I put my foot down

thanks all you guys who gave me advice <3

my new doggy! Mr. Bandit Bojangles

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there's something horrible bothering me ( Read more... )

Ummm so I almost broke up with Ricky over the weekend. I don't even remember why now. I was drunk. I really need to stop being that ( Read more... )

So I have to work every day this week. Monday my manager tricked me into coming into work when I wasn't even scheduled and expected me to stay and work after being a fucking cock. And then got mad at my supervisor for telling me I wasn't really scheduled. Fucking cock. Today I went to school then stayed after to make up work then went to the ( Read more... )