so much has changed, but so much stays the same!  my nights and days go on, and life is still as imaginary as it used to be.  getting a cottage in cape cod this summer for a week with some people - and let me tell you, a few of the people i really wish could come have absolutely no chance of probably even finding out - and if they did, they are ( Read more... )

I hate Jude. I really didn't care before, but now I sincerely hate her for being bitchy and not letting me stay with my Jase tonight. Who I miss with a horrible terrible heart rending ache....yeah I know melodramatic but I'm high and I feel like being so....:p. Anyways, I snuggle in my blankie with puppies of present, and dream of several months ( Read more... )

AWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!! My sweetly puppy gave me a very very soft hugely blankie for an anniversary present!! And it has wolves and moons on it, and is black and silver and grey and pretty! A blanket may not sound like a very exciting present, but it is GORGEOUS and SOFT and reminds me of him, which makes it the best present ever. I am afraid to ask ( Read more... )

Oh Dear. The world is up in the air at the moment, and it really sucks. If there is one thing I hate its insecurity about important things, like WHERE I'M GOING TO LIVE. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Okay, so the deal is that Jude fucked up with the guy J, who we {being most importantly puppy and me} were going to live with yayness ( Read more... )

My dad is in bed, I'm tipsy and slightly sex deprived, and so I am going to steal the rest of his wine. If the FBI is reading this, LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE YOU STALKERS!!! Everyone else....Hi! So I finished chapter 333y7 and then i nam now rhriwting chapte r38...it sprtty i think....ai also think i should stop typing because i'm so drunk i an't ( Read more... )

Tra la la....more random meanderings. So a very special and wonderful thing with my Jase happened today, but he has sworn me to secrecy, and so I will only say that it is special and wonderful. Secondly, I hate gynocologists. Like, really. They stick you with huge Q-tips and metal things and its annoying and I don't want people I don't know in ( Read more... )

Today I took the bandage off my hand (still kinda nasty but needs air exposure), missed my puppy (waaaaah) and am now slightly stoned from resin hits (hehehehe). I think thats why all the parantheticals. Other than that, I woke up at 730 so my dad would take me to Jase's house, but he didn't, so I went back to bed til 2. Then I have been talking ( Read more... )

So I forgot that I had an LJ, and rediscovered it by accident while reading everyone elses for the first time since February. Mwaha. So, I am moving to Agawam!!! YAHOOOOOOOO! MOVING! With my Jase of course, because I am going because he is going...actually mom and jude and uncle gary are moving too, but he and i get our own bedroom, and we are ( Read more... )

the moment i die ( Read more... )