yesterday was saturday. that is supposed to mean everybody meeting up at jimys work and waiting for him to get off and we all chill together. we all kinda made a pact to make it like that every saturday. last week was fun. nothing special happened but i had a blast just chillin. so hippy says for us all to make sure we keep next saturday open bc we ( Read more... )

im having a hair issue today. i usally have pretty soft and curlyish hair. last night i dyed my hair back to my natural black. i had blue bangs and the color kept changing like everyday more and more greenish turquois. anyways i dyed it back to black. i used the same dye i have always uesed. herbal essence black saphire. the color looks great, but ( Read more... )

i want to update...but my mind is a blank. i feel sick. i feel like i am dragging myself around. im in the need for a good cuddle. so i cuddled my dog all night then when my mom came home from work i confused her by crawling ingo her arms like a baby. nothing more sad than a 200lb girl with peircings and pajamas crawing into her mommy's arms. we ( Read more... )

i have been thinking about courtney a lot lately. i miss her so much. i want to call her but i always get cold feet. i know she would be happy to hear from me. and i know she is also having the same problem as i am with making that call. i know she loves me. and well i know she knows i love her dearly. she scares me. these unnatural feelings i have ( Read more... )

1. What's on your bedside table? i dont have one bc my ferrets knock everything over ( Read more... )

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i woke up in the middle of the night gasping for air. i thought i was dying. i was in the middle of a dead sleep and shot up in siting position with my feet on the floor clentching my throat. i was bucking my heals and praying this wasnt the end. it felt like my throat became the size of a pinhole. and then as quickly as it happend i violently ( Read more... )

ok so i was actually awake today during day light hours. not only awake up out and about. i drove to chicago today to meet this guy named jonathan that i met on gothic personals. hes a nice guy. we went to sinbads resturant to eat lunch. he is vegan so he showed me what kind of food he eats. it was funny. he ordered for me and when he put the plate ( Read more... )

last night i went to the exit in chicago with my friend crimsonfleur. i was jsut about to deem the night an uneventful one and she called me and dragged my ass out. i was so proud of myself. i drove to chicago all by myself. and i atually found the place i was supposed to meet her at with out any mistakes ( Read more... )

i feel kinda pathetic. no one ever calls me to hang out. i feel like no one would miss me if i just disapeared.