me and my mother have been making christmas orniments for our family the past week or so. that is why i have been seen every day with glue and paint all over my hands. well i have this box full of candie beads that i used to make bracelets and stuff out of. i thought that some of the beads i had in there would be a nice touch to some of the ( Read more... )

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its about 8:20 in the morning and i am wide awake. the night before thanksgiving i didnt get a single wink of shut eye. i tried everything. i excersized (even tho im not allowed to do that for 2 weeks), i cleaned, i took a long bath, i even smoked up hoping it would make me drowsy. no deal. went to thanksgiving dinner at my aunts house. there was ( Read more... )

got results back from the doctor. i dont really want to post it in my journal so if u wish to know about it talk to me personally.

im off to the doctors office in about 10 min. they found something wrong in my last test results. they have no idea what it could be yet. im nervous. im so nervous i am making myself feel sick. who knows what the fuck is wrong with me now.

please tell me everything is going to be ok

i did a huge entry last night but it magically disapeared as soon as i clicked on update journal. i was really pissed when that happened ( Read more... )

it hurts to move.
it hurts to eat.
it hurts to be awake.
it hurts to sleep.
it hurts to breathe.
it hurts to shit.

my eyes hurt.
my head hurts.
my stomach hurts.
my back hurts.

im tired from not sleeping.
im hungry from not eating.

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food poisoning is no fun.

first of all i want to appoligize about my last post. it was supposed to be private but i goofed. didnt even realize that i made the mistake till the exact people i didnt want to see it had already talked to me about it. oops ( Read more... )

i used to be a cutter when i was in highschool. i was dealing with my fathers death and not knowing that i was terrminally ill. i used to carry a razor in my wallet to school and in the bathroom stalls cut myself, put a flannel on and go back to class with blood running down my arm and no one knew it. and i pretended like it was nothing. but inside ( Read more... )

i havent updated for the past few days. i havent really been in the mood. im still not really in the mood but i will do it anyways ( Read more... )