How come i only write in this thing when um pissed or upset or crying thats soooooooooooooo annoying! i really wish i was one of thos ppl that had the perfect life and the perfect boyfriend and just everything was just so perfect and i wouldnt have to worry about nething:( you know i have never been this depressed before i really am upset at my ( Read more... )

ONCE AGAIN its so damn hard to keep up with this shit lol....well ive been sick fer about a week and i was out of school for 5 days:( (it was bad)ive had so much freaking homework that i had to catch up on its not even funny MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 5 DAYS!!!!!!!! im so excited fer that! wooohooo 17 and i get my license FINALLY in november!(that means i ( Read more... )

hmmmm......... i knew this thing woul be hard to keep up with! damn so many things have happened and i havnt been home to know abou them gosh this is gay!!!!!!!!!well im sorry i wasnt ther fer ya niko i hope you will forgive me:) just know that if i knew what was going on i would of tryed harder to get aholdc of ya! *kiss*

To kill the whitest looking dove ( Read more... )

Just throw it back, for one more night On a starlit and moon-struck night.

The ground did fold and eat us both But all my love, I did devote.

Beneath the rafters the angels sing Spinning violence and playing with my heart.

This song, I wrote For you, to see And my heart,

it now breaks And the blood spins down you’re spine Lost inside another ( Read more... )

gah

I did something bad last night and i feel like crap! Every thing is going wrong in my life lately and i want it all to stop! i wish there was a guy out there that can make me happy and here fer me when i need a sholder to cry on! i just want the feeling that somone loves me i need it if i keep surching i will find the wrong thing and i bet get into ( Read more... )

I REALLY WISH I COULD BE THERE MORE FER MI FRIENDS THAT NEED ME IT UPSETS ME!!!!!!!

ok i dont know how well i will keep up with this but i will try! i dont even know what im suposed to do i feel like a retard typing so much and saying so little! well i called niko last night go to talk to him fer an hour ot two it was great! hes not as shy as he says he is its awsome..... i wish i could be there to give him hugs when he needs them ( Read more... )