You know how most people when you ask them to do something little (ex. get me a glass of water, rub my shoulders, make me a sandwich) they just say no, as if it's an automatic response. Like no way get it yourself you lazy ass. Well I was in the shower today (where I do most of my best thinking)and I remembered what Michael said when I asked him ( Read more... )

Oh I miss my mom she always says shit like that. It will come back to you in spades, say goodnight gracie and back at the ranch. I don't know where that last one is from. Some weird T.V. show during her childhood. I hope my kids find me as unique and wacky and amazing! Clarissa can vouch ( Read more... )

Ugh I was reading the previous live journal I wrote. I am a sap. Maybe I just miss Mike. I haven't heard from him in over a week...

For the first time ever I'm feeling alone. Not in a lonely aww pity me way. Just alone. Kinda like the world around me isn't really there anymore and I'm watching it from a window. Everyone else is moving on, forming relationships or fixing old ones. I kinda got lost somewhere in that. I think I forgot who I was, and what I once wanted. Most people ( Read more... )

It's relatively early for college however, sleep is all I want right now. Jessie made me laugh today. We were being silly in Tops. Oh being silly rocks! I have to admit that the sorority girls almost ruined my mood but, the grocery store sing along helped tremendously. I miss Clarissa who gets to hang out with her coolest cousin Leslie in Purchase ( Read more... )

For some reason the temperature in dorm rooms is never comfortable. It's always to hot or way to cold with the window open. I think it's designed to keep kids as uncomfortable as possible. Anyways life is ok. My world civ exam was easier than expected and I'm glad to have one less class to stress over. I'm signing the lease today for my apartment ( Read more... )

Today was better than usual. No real surprises, a few nice convos and compliments. I find when I'm in a good mood I'm much nicer to everyone around me. For some odd reason I'm ok with V-day. I know I should be miserable and lonely and wanting mike home with me. I'm actually just glad that everyone else is enjoying it and that I'll get to spend it ( Read more... )

Ok the number one reason i don't do drugs...because i can't even handle advil cold and sinus. If my body freaks out over this stuff think about what serious drugs would do to me. Oh yeah and all the horrible things medically that drugs will do to my body. Kinda goes against my desire to be healthy. I don't think I could go to the gym everyday with ( Read more... )

I've never felt so horribly alone or so clostriphobic in my life. CNN just did a segment on how they propose to cremate the bodies of soldiers killed by anthrax over in Iraq as not to spread it. Before I knew it I was drained of all energy and tears were inevitable. I feel I've lost my touch on reality. Just yesterday I was looking for apartments, ( Read more... )

Jessie is back and my world is complete. So im going home for valentine weekend. I can't wait to let my parents take care of me. My dad asked if I would be his Valentine! I love my house, my food, even carmel and my car don't look so bad anymore. It's not quite the same without my real valentine home with me, however it's a little less lonely than ( Read more... )