I have been trying to make my life as good as I can possibly make it. Sometimes I feel that if I stop trying, things wouldn't be as good as I want them to be. But sometimes if we stop trying so hard, times will be better than our expectations could ever hope for ( Read more... )

I have the best friend in the world.  I love him so much.  I don't know how to adequately express my love and gratitude.

That is all.

So it was an interesting weekend, to say the least.  Somehow or other I always seem to end up in tears though, despite my efforts to not do so.  Saturday was a hard pill to swallow, because my original plan failed miserably.  Ideally, I would have liked a Saturday where I went to training, then met up with Tommy and his mom at the dog show, and ( Read more... )

I'm sitting at work, thinking "What the hell am I supposed to do while waiting for others to get back from lunch so we can get the activity at 2:00 started?"  I found a sheet of paper on my desk that looks important and I have no idea what it means or who it's from.  It's raining outside, my head hurts, it's a late day at work,  and I got into a ( Read more... )

It's been beautiful lately here on the weekends, so Tommy and I have been trying to get outside more.  One of the ways we enjoy doing that is by bicycling around where we live.  I was really proud of myself, the first time we rode, we went to a park near me.  Maybe about three or four miles round trip.  The second time we rode about seven miles ( Read more... )

Trying to keep up with everything can always leave me feeling overwhelmed and inadequate.  Lately, I've been feeling a lot of that.  Started a new position at work, so I've had to learn many new things and routines.   I'm doing better, but there's still so much I need to keep up with, such as the great goobs of paperwork involved with this job.  My ( Read more... )

I love the way he sings songs to me, giving them his own special twists to make them more meaningful ( Read more... )

Time for an update.  So things were glossed over with my parents, and currently we're acting civil to each other.  Mom's asked that I start paying rent again, which I'm ok doing, but I really wish I could afford getting out on my own.  Right now they're just going to have to put up with my decisions with how I'm living my life. 
My relationship with ( Read more... )

Ok, so last weekend, I spent with Tommy.  Friday we had dinner with his mother and her friend down in Eastgate.  Then, I drove back to Dayton with Tommy because we had to be in Springfield early on Saturday for a Conceal Carry licensing class.  That was fun, but it was a long day, from 8 am to 8 pm.  So I stayed with Tommy again Saturday night, ( Read more... )

I think I'm going through a "Don't Leave Me" attachment phase right now.  I know I need to let go and I know I'll be ok when we're apart, but it physically  hurts when either one of us needs to leave after spending some much treasured time together.  I'm trying to work through it, especially after he saw me so upset Monday night as I was trying to ( Read more... )