b: 1/2 bagel [100 kcal] + lite cream cheese [20 kcal], coffee

l: 1 cup cream of broccoli soup [90 kcal], diet coke w/ lime

d: 1 cup veggie soup, small salad [lettuce & tomato], 1/2 cup corn

total: 500 calories.

will have a small something for breakfast to jump-start my metabolism for the day. but what?

bagels= 200 calories, muffins = 200, scones = 150, yogurt = 70, cereal & milk = 220... deciscions decisions...

also, we have dinner tonight, so i shall have to be careful about making my food look bigger than it is.

112 pounds. bmi 18.6. less than 18.5 is below "normal". i don't want to be "normal". health class today calculated desired body weights using different methods to find body fat percentage. my body fat ranged between 15 and 24%. some are incorrect, though. minimum required body fat for females is 9-12%. i want to be nine. 3% is the minimum ( Read more... )

i got down to 110 on spring break [finally!] and i was 112 on Sunday, but right now i'm probably 115 'cause i ate this huge bowl of mac & cheese [sick] right before bed and i woke up and my stomach was swollen up like a balloon and i had regained completely that nasty chin/neck-fat that i'd lost and had had a beautiful boned jawline. i have no ( Read more... )

fat girls don't get flowers for valentine's day.

i ate like 1500 calories today and yesterday. stupid friends forcing food down my throat. i can't stand them sometimes

especially one today who was complaining that her shirt made her look too skinny. she kept crying, 'look at me! i'm emaaaaaaaaaciated'. oh, shut the fuck up. she weighs 103 pounds. every girl i know weighs 103 pounds. ( Read more... )

today i had a donut hole and a sugar-free vanilla frozen latte. never had one before; now i know why mk is obsessed! delicious, 100 calories; what could be better? total 156 calories. burned off 200 in gym class today. yesssssss. go me. even when bf was consuming greasy food in front of me, i sipped my water and denied my hunger. my stomach ( Read more... )

i only had 526 calories today, but i feel like i've digested a whale.

the more i feel my ribs, the more times i hear my boyfriend saying i'm 'beautiful' or 'gorgeous'.

v. tired. long weekend of partying [and celebrating my willingness to not eat]. i've gained self control again. it's beautiful. 117 lbs feels so very very good. and i get to go back to school tomorrow and not have to sit down for family meals, and tomorrow my boyfriend will be able to slide his arms around my somewhat-smaller waist and i can ( Read more... )