just found out that it's eating disorder awareness week. in honour of that, i think i'll try to not eat anything 'til friday. aboslutely nothing tomorrow; wednesday, some tea; thursday,maybe a little juice. i'm going on a spring break trip with a bunch of people, so eating will be inevitable, but i'll restrict restrict restrict as much as i can ( Read more... )

i feel so fat today. utterly rotund. fasting tomorrow and friday.

three cups of green tea. nothing else

tomorrow = juice

friday = green tea until i get there

almost like i've started the 3-day fast already. except i'll have to eat this weekend. yeah.

i want to cry.

i do so well fasting and restricting for a few days, and then i binge.

maybe i am ed-nos.

for lunch i had a cup of orange juice, a salad, and an apple.

and then i went to the store and ended up eating a whole bag of those ritz peanut butter crackers. *facepalm*

i wish i could puke.

i ate breakfast. just to eat. ugh. sliced up part of a banana and put it over a bowl of cheerios with skim milk. half a bagel with peanut butter. i want to barf

530 calories. in one meal! disgusting.

i'm such a fat lard. i found this thing that lets you calculate your body statistics. mine at the moment ( Read more... )

i just ate a banana.

crap!

i all of a sudden got the strongest craving for pizza, and was about to run out the door and get some, and then i said, "no!!!" and i ended up eating that banana that i was saving for tomorrow's breakfast. crap crap crap!

well, it was only 108 calories. 440 cal. total for the day.

tomorrow: green tea for breakfast ( Read more... )

oh my gosh, i almost ate a banana ( Read more... )

this week is going to be a good week. i've planned out my meals so far. [liquid fasting today and tomorrow]

sunday: apple juice; berry v-8 splash
monday: juice; green tea; juice; green tea
tuesday: breaking the fast with an apple or milk & cheerios or a banana; green tea; juice & apple or minestrone soup ( Read more... )

i've tried and tried and tried to purge so many times this week, but still, nothing comes up. the back of my throat is scratched, and i've got sore teethy-marks on my knuckles; and still, no results. ugh.

i did 100 crunches tonight. i hope it burns tomorrow. i need to get to group exercise classes this week.

love handles = huge. disgusting ( Read more... )

lent is my favourite season.... because you can give up certain foods and have your friends encouraging you about it. ^_ ( Read more... )