today = fasting

[unless mum makes me eat dinner. that's a 50% chance. if she does, i'll eat a little tiny bit and claim i'm not hungry]

true friends make fun of you for gaining weight, so you know it's time to lose it.

thursday night: 129 [huuuuuuuuuuge. sick.]
friday morning: 127.5
now: i need to buy a scale

and now every time i reach for food, those words will repeat in my head.

"are you getting fatter?"

not anymore.

i have a large arse.

okay. i'm really sucking at restricting lately [since, say, spring break]. living with 18 people got my body into eating like a "normal" person, and it's a cycle i can't escape. it made me fat. i'm about 122 now. sick, i know ( Read more... )

a friend of mine found out that she's borderline diabetic. her mom told her she has to lose 10 to 15 lbs. hearing that made me glad; she'll look great when she loses the weight ( Read more... )

self control. self control. self control. self control. self control. self control. self control. if i have self control, i won't be such a fatty. self control. self control. self control. self control. self control. self control. self control. living on as few calories as is possible. self control. self control. self control. ( Read more... )

i'm starting the sacred heart diet again tomorrow ( Read more... )

I am such a fat ass.

where is my self-control?

since spring break i feel like i've gained about twenty pounds. i am absolutely disgusted with myself. there's just this great blob of lard around my middle. and i was doing so well before!! >:-O ( Read more... )

next week, i need to be the skinniest girl on the beach. need.