ughhh i can't lose weight at all. i'm always hanging out with my bf, and he always wants to get food. i say no, but i can't say no every time. it's impossible to fast with him around. i almost wish i could disappear for the week and see him only on weekends.

this is ridiculous.

long time. i was down to 118 by the end of the summer, but i'm sure i'm back up by now. ugh.

i miss being thin. it's time to take action.

126 today. fatarse. how can i restrict when i have to eat 3 meals a day with everyone?

i'm going to camp. [i'm really fat right now, eww] i'll have to eat three meals a day for the next two weeks, so i'll have to have small portions. fortunately, though, working at camp meals burning a billion calories a day. yay! but still, i can't let hunger get in the way. nothing satisfies your stomach than it being tiny after staff ( Read more... )

I went out with a friend tonight. We ended up getting ice cream. My cone was HUGE.

oh gosh, i wish i could purge...

yesterday morning i got in the shower and noticed a few things: i felt physically smaller. yesssssss. two days of reduced eating had paid off! i put my hands on parts of my body and felt that the fat there had shrunk. and that felt gooood.

then i used my sister's body wash and shampoo and found a pleasant surprise. cocoa body wash and ( Read more... )

working on my way to eating less and less calories every day. 738 total for the day ( Read more... )

i forgot that i had a glass of 1% milk with supper. that brings me up to 895 for the day.

fatass = me

[i'll do better tomorrow, i promise]

:-D

chicken soup for lunch = 150 calories

dinner: small serving of pasta w/ tomato sauce + slice of garlic bread + salad w/ olive oil & balsamic vinegar = 442 calories

cup of peach mango frozen yogurt [non-fat!] for dessert = 200 calories

792 calories total. plus 60 sit-ups today. gotta get rid of this gut.

feeling good, feeling great, how ( Read more... )

alright, so i've figured out that my body can't take all-out fasting quite yet. my realisation is that i have to take small steps towards losing this weight much quicker. so now: smaller portions and less bad stuff ( Read more... )