Soo alot has been going on lately.. I found who I was and then the rug was pulled out... but thank goodness it was cause I would have never found you if it hadn't been... it's funny how life does that sometimes. makes you feel like you can't even look up with out wanting to die and then you meet someone or get an oppurtunity...and it feels liek ( Read more... )

my friends are retarded... but I love them


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Just some pictures that make me smile :)


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jsut some pictures from formal :)


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I was looking @ pics ole' school pics of me cam and da boys and i got sad.... so im putting them on here cause mayeb in some wierd way it'll make me feel better.


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Lately I've been thinking. Maybe I do the things I do cause I'm secretly unhappy with myself and those people wether in my life for one night or 3+ years make me feel loved. Maybe It's my fault me I sleep in the living room every night for really no reason other than I watch tv til im so drowsy I don't want to cry anymore. I don't know what is ( Read more... )

ok sooo I was fine last night til i decided to retire to a certain room to rest for " a little bit" it almost looks like your still there and i just layed there and cried....then detox came in and we had a serious talk and it was amazing. He knows more than i thought and it makes me feel so much better. I also played lots of beer pong and danced ( Read more... )

I thorughly don't feel like leaving my house for the next six months....i know i can't be that way but I really just want him to be safe i normally don't pray but i found mysef pray for his saftey last night. cause deep down in my heart of hearts I do love that big r-tard.and i always will but i don't ever think he will be what i need...damn it. ( Read more... )

now is the time to be strong...it'll be ok he'll be ok .....stupid war taking all my friends away

maybe its the holidays, all the stupid cheer and "happiness" that make me so depressed sometimes... Its always right around this time of year. knowing that my exprencies with my family have never been good and now my two shoulders to talk to are both gone, one leaves for iraq the other has just faded away kinda like a dream . knowing your home ( Read more... )