I feel so much pain. For so long all I have wanted is death to release me. But I'm afraid of what is after this life, afraid that I'll miss something important. Still - the pain is too much. I want to die. I feel so lonely - and i feel like I'll always be this way. Whats the point of living everyday with so much hurt?

I don't know, I think I've finally made it out of the woods. There are still a lot of variables floating around and a ton of uncirtainty but maybe, just maybe there is a little hope for my life. I'm in a new town which is pretty amazing, I've had the opportunity to make some wonderfull friends and have the best of times. I mean, I miss my really ( Read more... )

Life, what a funny thing it is. I used to spend so much time on this thing trying to figure out what this world was about and it frustrated me to the point of madness that I couldn't figure out what the point of life even was. In truth I was only leading myself farther down a path that would never yeild the answer. My life used to be a balanceing ( Read more... )

There was a time in my life that I let everyone in my life walk over me because I didn’t think I was worth anything else. My life sucked and people took advantage of me. So, my close friends would tell me that I needed to become more of an asshole. First off I refused to take their advice; I failed to believe that I could not make myself happy by ( Read more... )

For some reason this song has meaning for me right now, enjoy:

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HURT (Johnny Cash)

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So as per request and popular demand I'm going to sit here and bitch about my life for a little bit. So yeah, my life. Nothing changes, I live and I wish I didn't. I'm apparently not good enough to be happy, my parents hate me and I've been alone all my life. I have friends I care about, but they don't care about themselves so I'm left here having ( Read more... )

Love, excitement, happiness and enthusiasm. These are just a few notable human emotions that are naturally fabricated lies that keep us alive. They are motivations that drive human survival - no more, no less. So what makes humanity imbue a deeper meaning upon these concepts? Is it a hope that there is more to life then simple survival and ( Read more... )

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So the other day some random chick read tarot cards for me at school and some of the crap she said really creeped me out. She said that I had lost a good friend recently, that I had lost motivation and that I was too preoccupied with whats been happening lately that I've gotten off track. She also said that I had a bright future comeing up and fast ( Read more... )

Fox is filming a re-make of "My Friend Flicka" and so far they've had two horses die of accidents that seem to be more of negligence then anything. The American Humane Association which is supposed to monitor such things just happens to be funded by the screen actors guild. Can anyone say conflict of interest? So there it is, fox is evil. Call me a ( Read more... )