its strange how many years ive been turning to this thing in times of despair or unhappiness. i havent written in it reguarly in a long time, but its always nice to have a place to put your thoughts, especially since no one really reads this anymore. not that i care eaither way ( Read more... )

wow i havent updated in awhile, as eric kindly reminded me. LUCKILY im here now for the purpose of entertaining eric with my babble ( Read more... )

sometimes it takes just enough of something or just enough of some kind of behavior before you can process what it really means or the true reprecussions for your actions. i decided sometime over the past few days that ive subjected myself to a harsh kind of love and affection where ive destroyed the meaning of every intimate emotion i used to know ( Read more... )

you know that feeling when you meet someone and you think theyre really cool and then they just generally turn out to be an asshole? i hate that, mostly because it makes me feel stupid and used almost, because i extended my friendship to someone who just sucks. so that sucks sometimes ( Read more... )

i had another great weekend. we hung out with a bunch of kids we never hang out with and that was really cool. i had a really great time and thats important ( Read more... )

my vacation was pretty good. i sustained a few injuries, as well as alex, all seemingly related in one way or another. there was a few negitive things, such as alexs current state, but as far as im concerned the good things outweighed the bad, especially towards the end. although today is still technically vacation and as of this moment im not ( Read more... )

i finally watched the movie that was given such high praise by greg- eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. it was strange and (of course) it made me cry. it was pretty intense. imagine being able to erase a person from your mind, completely erase an entire relationship. forget you were in love, forget the mistakes, forget the pain, forget how much ( Read more... )

i had an entry about people being stupid but then i erased it ( Read more... )

last night was fun. megan came over in the afternoon and ate some pasta and meatballs and then we went to the states for cheerleading. we had to represent our girls cause it was lauren and melissa's last competitions. so we hung out with all the girls and carolyn, austin, ed, yada yada. it was cool. then me and meg called to say we were going to ( Read more... )

well im at caits right now. i was supposed to come with nicole, alex and megan. but first alex didnt want to go cause she wanted to sleep which i dont blame her. so then my parents decide i cant go unless i sleep there and A) only one person was allowed to sleep over caits mom says and B) nicole couldnt cause she had to work tomorrow so i came ( Read more... )