I thought about you alot today.

Probably more than I should have.

I'm pretty sure I've lost my mind. I'm at a place that I've never been. I've never had this problem this bad. And its up to me. The decision is mind. what happens will be a result of my actions. If only I knew what the right decision is. I know what i'm thinking. and its defently crazy. i think i've lost it.

I never knew.

I never knew that everything was falling through.

I saw someone today. They reminded me of you. It made me smile. And giggle to myself.

:)

<3

There's nothing worse than being lonely. Being all alone. All my friends here are gone. Off to college. And even if they were here. The person who was supposed to be my bestfriend can't even make time for me anymore. I havent talked to her since August. She doesnt answer when I call and doesnt return calls. Probably all because of something stupid ( Read more... )

Wow so people are dumb. The expect way too much. And I dont understand how when they get an idea stuck in their head its your fault ( Read more... )

Fuck that shit.

I'm over it.

Ah, the christmas season. Its a beautiful thing. It just makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. Maybe its all the green and red. And the snow. And all the christmas lights. Its always a happy time of year. I think it should be christmas all year around. But i guess that would kinda take the specialness out of it. So forget that idea ( Read more... )

Okay so its officially been the longest day of my life. So I wasnt supposed to work today. But it was my call in day. So last night I thought oh they wont need me to work today. So i didnt go to bed till like 2. Woke up at 8:30 rolled over and called work. My boss told me to come in at 1, so i was happy cuz I was super tired. Right after i fell ( Read more... )

This is my life.
It will never be different.
It will never get any easier.
We may always be this far apart.
This is the way we have chosen to live. I have accepted that.
I will never love anyone else the way I love you.
And you need to know.