I eat out of boredom so there is some softness around my hips that are just lovely ( Read more... )

I dont feel like the same person anymore. I feel as if I have retracted in my life and its a horrible feeling. I liked who I was in New York! What the fuck happened?

I need to write more.

I hate a lot right now. I hate how my parents are acting and the fact that once again I have found myself back in their reach. And that I actually need them. I have hit a point in life that I should not be asking for help and just doing. Its disheartening to me. I am discouraged by some here bc I have to convince them to remember a friend and ( Read more... )

Sorry kids for being so damn MIA lately. School has been a blast...sarcasism~ Weirdly enough I have sobered up almost completly and DONT even smoke. Its this damn town, its too healthy for me. Just wait till I get back there. I am finishing up with my finals and after tomorrow I can actually have time to...do anything. So, expect phone calls ( Read more... )

I need to first apologize to all the girls in VAB and NYC that I am sorry for not calling as much. School has been crazy busy. I actually walked out of my last calculus test NOT crying. That is sad that is an improvement. Do you realize how close I am to saying fuck this! I am trying to throw a big party for August here with Liz. I already ( Read more... )

All that needed to be said was said in replies and in post. Its out and the reasoning is out. Lets now enjoy each others company. I love you girls more then anything and I am in love with an amazing guy. I could not be any happier!

Holy Moly~ He flies into Virginia in a couple hours and I dont find myself nervous at all...scared shitless, yes! We will see what the heck will happen. I had a root canal done the other day and boy do I reccomend NITRUS~ That was great. Saved the valium and have a mess of vicadine. I am def taken care of in that direction...when it comes to ( Read more... )

How do you tell someone that you enjoy being cynical and cold hearted? How do you tell someone that they are just there to entertain you? And that they are no one important? You dont. That is easy. But how do you tell someone everytime a person like that comes around and that its not them your stomach turns inside out? If its not them touching ( Read more... )

A qoute from my all intelligent little brother...

"By nature, everyone is selfish"

Would you rather be cynical and hopeless?

Or

Hopefull and heartbroken?