I'm not entirely sure what I'm feeling right now. I haven't felt this way in quite a while. I suppose I can call it anger-sadness-guilt-paranoia-nauseous-loathing-disguested-y. This is an only moderately accurate portmanteau ( Read more... )

Don’t be afraid; I plan on saying “yes”.

This is an entry on a good day, which is quite rare, so enjoy.

Things seem to be going well now. The next week will certainly tell a tale as to how good it really is. I went in for a job interview earlier this week. I wasn’t as qualified, per se, as my main competition, but I’m confident that I’m way ( Read more... )

It's only when I'm in this mood that I write here. To look back over my entries, you'd think that nothing good ever happened to me. Untrue ( Read more... )

Last night I saw upon the stair
A little man who wasn't there.
He wasn't there again today,
Oh, how I wish he'd go away.

-Hughes Mearns

Eric and I had our first "fight" last night. It was more or less entirely my fault, as far as outside blame goes. Inside I blame my brain and it's refusal to function correctly.

I think Brandi expects me to be really ( Read more... )

 I feel awful at the moment, and I  don't even know why. Sure, I have plenty of reason to be upset, but I'm not even sure that any of that is why. Maybe it's just a few of the little things that have happened lately. For instance, Nick knows I'm moving. Dick. Because people can keep their fucking mouths closed, or use their brains, or mind their ( Read more... )

 Sometimes I feel like I'm mourning everything that's ever been lost. Lost not only to myself, but to everyone. But that's not what this is about. I look at pictures and think, did I do right? Did I do right even by me? Sometimes I don't know. Most of the time the knowledge that I've done, always done what's needed to be done, makes me bright and I ( Read more... )

I wondered today how much ketchup it would take to fill an entire bathtub. Then I wondered what one would do with such a thing. Then I thought how that would be one sparkly bathtub once the ketchup was gone ( Read more... )

I realized that I havn't posted on lj in a very long time. I was thinking that for some unknown reason, I want to rant online a while in a place where no one will really look. Squid kibbles.
Suddenly I've lost the desire to write. Arrgh.
What is that?

 I am feeling very miffed. I want to vomit. Katie = goo. That is all.

I just read over a comment made a while back on this journal which was very rude. I wouldn't want to eat the rude people, just send them away, even though I do have a crush on Dr. Lecter. I remember my reaction to this comment, and how completely absurd it was. This particular comment does  not contain  one single ounce of truth. Now that I look ( Read more... )