Happy birthday amelia! (well yesterday now) i almost started crying at work today while strait cathing someone. extreme home makeover was on. it always makes me tear up... it was about some cancer patient or another, and my patient started talking about a relative who died of leukemia. then i started talking about amelia. nothing like adding ( Read more... )

i've been having the most mundane but panicked dreams lately. I'm driving but running on empty. I don't do anything about it, just drive. I've forgotten to chart something. I had a dream about how I felt about a month after amelia died ( Read more... )

three years... it feels like so much more. our lives have changed so much. i wish she could have been a part of it all. i wish i would have been better to her while she was here. we still miss you every day.

i turned my computer back on and it was (almost) back to normal. at least i got my links back.

my job is emotionally exhausting. i give everything i can... it's just overwhelming. i don't know. i can't wrestle 300+ lb men anymore. i'm just not built for it.

windows really gets my goat sometimes. it randomly downloaded an update this morning when i told it not to, moved everything off of my desktop, sending me into a panic for 15 minutes before i was properly caffeinated, and deleted all of my preferences in all of my programs. super frustrating ( Read more... )

i thought it was a fitting time to post again, the night before i go see everyone at doris' wedding ( Read more... )

I was off the floor for a week, due to a backpacking trip up the rogue with matt and then a very unfortunate case of explosive GI flu. The backpacking was fantastic. The vomiting and diarrhea not so much ( Read more... )

GOD I LOVE Joss Whedon. seriously... i just watched Dr. Horrible's Sing along blog and it is fantastic. NPH is awesome as well... and nathan fillion. hee hee hee, captain hammer. i just read the stuff on the web site. this cannot be the end! blearg ( Read more... )

i would have so much less work to do. seriously. tv doctors know what's going on with their patients. they hang meds, they bandage patients, they sometimes even start iv's. that and they're a lot hotter... there's a doctor at my hospital with a lazy eye. it's very awkward. then there's the one who i'm pretty sure can't actually write in english who ( Read more... )

i cooked my first big family thanksgiving dinner this year. matt's parents, his brother and sister-in-law, and jake and tessa all came to dinner. so of course, i bought plenty of beer and wine, as no parental situation can be addressed sober. matt's dad also brought his own gallon plastic bottle of rum. he proceeded to drink half of it over the ( Read more... )