i miss you...alot

not too much that is new here...i quit smoking, and now everything is harder. i am trying to be optimistic about it but it is hard. its been about two months....and not even a puff. oh well we'll see how it goes.

all i do is complain. i know i do. if its annoying...well sorry to say but its probably not going to change anytime soon. well, maybe if there wernt so many fucking morons roaming the earth, i wouldnt have to as much. just desolate stupidity. -that might have not made sense--but to me it does because i imagine it. its probably becuase i cant ( Read more... )

spring break...suppose to be fun? how am i suppose to have fun when i have a constant fucking reminder of how everybody else is accompanied, and im not. couples, couples, couples...thats all it will be. then...oh theres me me. ---fucking great.---and if i get one more fucking person whos barely older then me trying to explain that "im to ( Read more... )

im tired, because i have to work in the morning.
im tired, of the same fucking schedule everyday.
im tired, of things just being the way they are.
im tired, of not knowing what i want.
but most of all...im tired of being alone.

im not mad. just upset. and its not your fault. it was mine for even saying...anything.

red and blue lights are flashing through my window. as i peered out wondering why it was unusually dark outside. all the street lights are out all down 11 mile. because someone has crashed into a telephone pole in front of my house. i wish that i could be talking with someone right now. you know how alone you really are when you tell news to a ( Read more... )

only now am i coming to find that everything i think is a waste of time. i think about today, i think about tomorrow, and i think about 20 years from now. not saying that this isnt a commen thing among many people. but my thiking and analyzing is transforming into many worries. who should worry about tommorow or the next day. i really do respect ( Read more... )

nicole is my sweet little muffin ass...and hey...it was just an accident--well...waiting to happen. and still is

well...nothing new but having the birthday come and go-----just simply this....ps....it was nice seeing everyone on saturday...i love my little scrumpets.--and al--Do you have any salty snacks for me?+++and yes for all those who are unaware---this little zmich is now 18