after 6 years in crappy customer service jobs i finally mouthed off to a customer today. i dont even know where it came from. i wasn't feeling angry or overwhelmed or close to the edge. but this guy came in 2 minutes before close and wanted shaved chicken breast and he just wouldn't get it through his head that we were out of chicken breast. i got ( Read more... )

so in addition to my duct taped sideview mirror, one of my taillights is now out. several people have been 'kind' enough to inform me of this by sitting on their horns and waving wildly. mostly they've scared the shit out of me and/or pissed me off ( Read more... )

i had lunch with my gay catholic friends who i haven't seen in.. at least 2 years and haven't had regular contact with in over 4. they didn't say much about the trans thing. they said they were fine with it, even made some mumbled attempts at masculine pronouns, but they were surprisingly quiet about it. which surprised me because they're never ( Read more... )

i'm really tired right now and i dont know why. i can't remember the last time i took a nap, but i could totally take one right now. maybe. but i wont ( Read more... )

my mom is amazing. i'm really starting to think she's going to be fine with my transition. my sister, i know, is totally fine, i just need to make the announcement. my brothers, i'm not sure about. i dont even know how to start that conversation. i think i'll put it off a little longer ( Read more... )

i really really need a change. and i know that one is not coming for a while. i have to find a way to deal with that. i hate taking a year off. but the other options suck more. how many times a day do i have to remind myself of that?

i need brown shoes. but every single store i went to today, the boys shoes are in sizes 1-5.5. sometimes 1-6. men's sizes are 7-14. i wear a size 6.5. why is that gap there? am i really the only person in the US who wears a 6.5 shoe? i finally just gave up and bought a seven. i guess i'm destined to be a noisy baby elephant until i can get back to ( Read more... )

i got a letter today saying that i've finished paying my initiation fees and now i'm an official lifetime member of the illinois meatcutters union. i didn't even know there was a such a thing as a meatcutters union and now i'm in one! for life ( Read more... )

i spent most of the morning at arrowhead lake sitting up against a tree, watching the old men fish and the dragonflies fuck and letting the ants crawl all over my bare feet ( Read more... )

i talked to dongyanan very briefly today. i tried to bring up the hormones thing. i still haven't told her. but i forgot how good she is at avoiding serious conversations (we were together for over 3 months without ever directly discussing our "status" and she didn't admit that i was leaving until i got on the bus to go to the airport). and my ( Read more... )