I very tired today and have a cold. My car is fucked and is going to cost over 100 to fix. ti might as well cost a million, I still dont have the money. I have an interview in DOncaster, but I am not going to tell anyone this time. Mabey it is the new start that I need and want. It is exacley half way between mum and dad and bob and anette. It is ( Read more... )

I using live journal alot at the moment. I always feel that is good to get stuff out I think. Well the cold is getting to my ankles and tendons alot. I wearing thick socks and pain killers. This cause me very tired and I just want to sleep all the time. Never mind. O have lost weight which is good ( Read more... )

I was really down at the begging of the day. I felt very alone. I felt that everyone was happy with some one apart form me. I know what brought this on. Then I thought about it. I change people lives every day in the job. I helped a aperges guy get a b and c in his english coursework and my tutor group in understanding money mangment. My life is ( Read more... )

I am feeling very lonley at the moment. I can geel the stress in the back of my neck just building up. I think that one day it might explode, but more worryingly I dont think that is a bad thing.  Work is stressfull at the moment. I have a suspected child abuse case. the students are complaining about rubbish english teaching, so I have to confron ( Read more... )

This song perfectly sums me up at the moment ( Read more... )

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I had a bit of a wank week. My theory is if i get it all down here then it would make me feel better. Yes I have been looking up suicide techniques and stuff. but i trying to get better. Like cutting the boil open so to speak. Well were shall I start. hmm perhapes a list ( Read more... )

Indeed I am in a mood. I dont know why, and frankiley I dont really care at the moment. My experiment is working. I feel smart and educated which is a massive boast for me. I dont give myself enougth breaks. I do like reasrch when it is going right!!

I am all alone once more. I am finding this very difficult. No Bonnie no family. Said goodbye to a work mate today, I felt very sad. I hate sayng goodbye to people. Moving on, never seeing them again. Just reminds me of granny and grandad. I never had time to say goodbye. The family was not invited to the funeral. It is very hard and I do miss them ( Read more... )