For 8 1/2 hours a day, i sit in a large room hearing the same lyric-less tune reading bad books by myself. I generally on get 6 hours of sleep per night. And the 10 hours of the day? I have no idea where they are exactly? 45 minutes in the morning to get ready and drive to work, 45 minutes in the afternoon for nap time, 45 minutes for a shower. I'm ( Read more... )

expectations are a sonuvabitch ( Read more... )

Everyone always percieves there personal situation to be the worst. Which makes sense because how bad someone else is doing still doesn't change how your life is, or how shitty the things in it are going. Of course you can sympathize, as can they, but sympathy doesn't really get you anywhere ( Read more... )

its so hard having all these feelings and emotions and thoughts and not being able to share them w/ anyone...either cuz it will sound stupid or crazy or annoying or naive but i have them and i believe in them and i'm so thankful for them..and for him ( Read more... )

I am aware that those who read my LJ must be burdened with reading me whine about ( Read more... )

I’m back on everything again. Only new, cymbalta… we’ll see I guess…they think it might be seasonal affective disorder. I don’t know. I don’t want to know. However It coincides w/ all the W. but only kyle makes me feel that way at least. And its not really his fault I guess when you make someone your world youre making them be something for you ( Read more... )

i want to go home.
i want to be safe.
i want to be okay.
i dont want to feel this way anymore.

I don’t have anything to say right now ( Read more... )

Hmm.. well ( Read more... )

The main reason I am able to type and look at the computer screen right now is because I have not yet had knitting needles to stab through my eyes (thus making it impossible for me to see the screen on which my words are reflected) at my disposal ( Read more... )