So, i'm at emi's house right now...we're gonn go shopping whooohooo! Pretty much i am really hung over right now...last night was definitely interesting. I haven't been that boozed in quite awhile. Ended up hooking up with someone. Sooo fucking funny! Went hot tubbing. Good stuff. I love not having to care about josh or any other guy for that ( Read more... )

I have had a revelation...i have been dealing with quite a lot lately...my plate has been bursting with all sorts of juicy things. And i've come to relize with all of the things going on right now, that i DONT WANT TO BE HOOKING UP WITH ANYONE! At least not right now. You see, the thing is, i am moving away to college really soon, and boys have ( Read more... )

And guys think girls are confusing! I swear guys are just as fucking confusing, the only difference is that guys REALLY don't understand girls at all, and girls understand guys, but just have no fucking clue WHY they do the things they do. I'm sick of it. I sick of being taken for granted. I'm sick of not getting what i want. When is this gonna end ( Read more... )

i got into UCSC! Yay! i just found out. Glory halleluiah i'm goin to college. It feels so good just to know that i got in somewhere, plus i would be REALLY happy at UCSC...so if i dont get into cal, i'm sooo there! Whoopeeee!

hello limbo land! Nice to meet you! Can you please go away now and leave me with a piece of mind. I don't mind you that much, but i really much prefer knowing WHAT THE FUCK is going on in my life instead of this constant not knowing. But if i must, i will get used to you. This is life right?!

I am okay with things being uncertain right now. I suppose that is the best thing right now. I can't control anything that is going on, but i can control how i react and relate to the things in my life. Surprises haven't failed to creep up on me these past couple of days...some good, some bad, some good turned into bad...and i think some bad may be ( Read more... )

Holey moley mother of the lord! As if things weren't bad enough! So last night something happened that i regret so fucking much because i found something out today that makes what i did last night a fucking disgusting and horrible thing. I feel awkward, and repulisve and so incredibly fucked over by someone who i really care about. And i hate being ( Read more... )

Unfortunately...i am ever so confused. Last night was really weird...and awkward. I don't know what to do or think about anything anymore. Everyone seems to be sending me mixed messages. I hate this. I just want something to make sense for one...and i wanna be ok with it.

So you'll never guess what happened. Its actually quite odd...but in a good way. i kinda hooked up with someone who i've been really REALLY good friends with for a long time. In fact, he's like my best guy friend but ever since freshman year we've had this strange crush on eachother...but nothings ever happened, until last night. I still am kinda ( Read more... )

Ya know when you have the urge to do something but then you tell yourself not to and then you do it anyways. I hate that. I swear i do it all the time to, i just can't help it. The worst part is that when i actually do it, nothing bad happens, and sometimes i just wish it would so that i could move on to other things. Some of you probably know ( Read more... )