Am I that hard to live with?
Not even a month?
what is it about me?
Am I that horrible?

I guess there's something wrong with me.

Well, I told him.  I think i did anyway.  He was so understanding.  i know he still wants us to work out, but right now, there's no way.  I was so scared to talk to him.  I'm still scared to talk to him.  I do love him, but not like that anymore.  Like I love a big comfy sweater, I guess ( Read more... )

time for me to find out if I can make it living alone.  Stepping out . . . . Course, moving out at the end of this month does mean i have to not spend anymore money at all ever.  Which i can do, i think.  Decided this yesterday when I wanted air cleared from roommate disdain ( Read more... )

i really need to tell Russ what's going on with us.  I need to stop running scared. ..  face the music. .. . you know, be honest with myself and my feelings.  I need to tell him that right now, we need to break it off.  If it's meant to be, it will happen. 
I've hurt him so many times.  I don't deserve him. 

sooooo lonely.
:/
tired of sims
tired of just sitting around and watching movies
tired of running errands on my own
want company.  Real company.

I've gone into bored/lonely spending mode. Gotta stop that.

Hooray for broadband. . . and speakers that work. . .and . . . yay.

I goofed the other day and forgot to tell my roommate that my boyfriend was coming into town for 2.5 days. :/

He's leaving today :(

I'm wounded. Yesterdasy I got a quasi papercut on my wrist. .. and it hurts.

I'm ok, really ( Read more... )

wow. . . i have one thing I'm homesick for. . .. .

Privacy. Living in the livingroom of an apartment is really making me appreciate the privacy of my own room. Such luxury it will be when I can finally close the door and mope in peace when I feel like it.

Wow. Big difference.

i now have food. yay.

Today I said farewell to the best dog ever. She's now prancing and chasing squirrels in doggie heaven. She was obedient, kind, thoughtful, and sweet.
Her name was boots. She was part shepherd and I loved her.